Well, the lyrics may seem related to horror, but I think that they go along with the music video a little more. In the music video starring Elise Eberle and Allie Teilz, the girl played by Elise's thoughts go along with the lyrics. In the song, she is swaying with depression but love in her newly experienced feelings for the girl played by Allie. All of the lesbian feelings from her perspective are new and confusing.
I'm already born
I'm already wise
I'm already worn
I'm already wonderin' what am I
I'm already rough
I'm already lean
I'm already wanting to be obscene
I'm already cursed
I'm already dry
I'm already wonderin' what am I
I've already learned a bit of sin
Enough already, let me in
This shows that Elise's love for Allie is making her depressed, and confused for a new feeling. In the part where it says, "I've already learned a bit of sin", she is clearly feeling guilty because she is usually used to following the rules placed by society. In the music video, there are two different settings, Elise and Allie, and Elise alone doubting herself. In the moments of doubt, she is doing things like looking at herself in the mirror, or petting her cat for reassurement or satisfaction, either way to soothe herself.
And my grip starts loosening
The edge of the big reveal
Could be the end of the story
At this part, Elise seems to be trying to decide whether to confess her love for Allie or not. Her grip is loosening, but the only happiness in her life comes from being with Allie, and she doesn't want to lose her. "Could be the end of the story" means that Elise is afraid of talking to Allie because losing her would be the end of HER story, and her life would be over. I find this very depressing, especially at the end when Allie leaves.
Well, the lyrics may seem related to horror, but I think that they go along with the music video a little more. In the music video starring Elise Eberle and Allie Teilz, the girl played by Elise's thoughts go along with the lyrics. In the song, she is swaying with depression but love in her newly experienced feelings for the girl played by Allie. All of the lesbian feelings from her perspective are new and confusing. I'm already born I'm already wise I'm already worn I'm already wonderin' what am I I'm already rough I'm already lean I'm already wanting to be obscene I'm already cursed I'm already dry I'm already wonderin' what am I I've already learned a bit of sin Enough already, let me in This shows that Elise's love for Allie is making her depressed, and confused for a new feeling. In the part where it says, "I've already learned a bit of sin", she is clearly feeling guilty because she is usually used to following the rules placed by society. In the music video, there are two different settings, Elise and Allie, and Elise alone doubting herself. In the moments of doubt, she is doing things like looking at herself in the mirror, or petting her cat for reassurement or satisfaction, either way to soothe herself. And my grip starts loosening The edge of the big reveal Could be the end of the story At this part, Elise seems to be trying to decide whether to confess her love for Allie or not. Her grip is loosening, but the only happiness in her life comes from being with Allie, and she doesn't want to lose her. "Could be the end of the story" means that Elise is afraid of talking to Allie because losing her would be the end of HER story, and her life would be over. I find this very depressing, especially at the end when Allie leaves.