I've just realised this is completely about a situation I'm in with my current partner. I'm always blaming him for making me feel controlling and manipulative, believing he's the cause of my jealousy when it actually comes from myself. I'd be the same with any other partner, it's not about him. What he does is to bring this madness to light. He gives me the most generous triggers, for with this I have now an opportunity to face my flaws and admit that I have to work my problems (the thought of dropping all arms leaves me terrified).
Those feelings leave me with physical pain. I couldn't see how much they affect me... If it weren't for him, I would still be blaming someone else, so I should thank him.
I've just realised this is completely about a situation I'm in with my current partner. I'm always blaming him for making me feel controlling and manipulative, believing he's the cause of my jealousy when it actually comes from myself. I'd be the same with any other partner, it's not about him. What he does is to bring this madness to light. He gives me the most generous triggers, for with this I have now an opportunity to face my flaws and admit that I have to work my problems (the thought of dropping all arms leaves me terrified). Those feelings leave me with physical pain. I couldn't see how much they affect me... If it weren't for him, I would still be blaming someone else, so I should thank him.