Someone lying on their bed staring up at the ceiling, seeing a stain there that looks like a face (doesn't everyone do this, making patterns from marks on the ceiling?)
Song is about a desire for a person that the songwriter is trying and failing to bury. Likely a relationship has ended, songwriter likens this to a death (like digging a grave for a dead body: "Digging like you can bury / Something that cannot die / We could wash the dirt off our hands now"). The relationship won't die for the songwriter though, as they're being plagued by thoughts about it, even as they try hard to repress it - psychologically, repressing something painful doesn't work as the pain you're trying to ignore ends up infecting your life ("Keep it from living underground" - i.e., buried in the soil, in the subconscious)
The weirdness of that opening lyric, a stain on the ceiling that looks like a face and the face is repeating something over and over and over to you - this is all about the subconscious mind, something preying on your mind, to such a degree that your mind is pattern-seeking from random shapes like a rorschach test. This is a person in denial.
I think the line about "lazy summer goddess" matches the vibe of the song at large which is mounting to a breaking point the whole time, even while the song is quite dreamy, much like the mindset of someone just passively lying on a bed, whose mind is nonetheless swamped with trying NOT to think about seeing someone you very much want to see but you're telling yourself you don't HAVE to, to give yourself a sense of control. I love how beautifully the song ends back in the sort of deceptive peace and quiet of the room with the curtains moving a little in the breeze, that's what it makes me feel.
Someone lying on their bed staring up at the ceiling, seeing a stain there that looks like a face (doesn't everyone do this, making patterns from marks on the ceiling?)
Song is about a desire for a person that the songwriter is trying and failing to bury. Likely a relationship has ended, songwriter likens this to a death (like digging a grave for a dead body: "Digging like you can bury / Something that cannot die / We could wash the dirt off our hands now"). The relationship won't die for the songwriter though, as they're being plagued by thoughts about it, even as they try hard to repress it - psychologically, repressing something painful doesn't work as the pain you're trying to ignore ends up infecting your life ("Keep it from living underground" - i.e., buried in the soil, in the subconscious)
The weirdness of that opening lyric, a stain on the ceiling that looks like a face and the face is repeating something over and over and over to you - this is all about the subconscious mind, something preying on your mind, to such a degree that your mind is pattern-seeking from random shapes like a rorschach test. This is a person in denial.
I think the line about "lazy summer goddess" matches the vibe of the song at large which is mounting to a breaking point the whole time, even while the song is quite dreamy, much like the mindset of someone just passively lying on a bed, whose mind is nonetheless swamped with trying NOT to think about seeing someone you very much want to see but you're telling yourself you don't HAVE to, to give yourself a sense of control. I love how beautifully the song ends back in the sort of deceptive peace and quiet of the room with the curtains moving a little in the breeze, that's what it makes me feel.