This song speaks to me as a situation where the love the singer once felt has died and the relationship has withered past the state of rescue. The love she once felt has wound up hurting all the time, and she calls it a "strange kind of love" in a tongue-in-cheek way, since that is not love at all. However, she is aware of this and sort of chastises herself for suggesting that love even exists there at all.
She speaks of the void where the other's affections should be ("There’s a hole in your chest / Falling down from Everest") but this person is hanging on to the relationship because they can't let go ("You hold on to everything you can but what is really left?").
The singer's eye is even wandering, looking for someone who can give them what their partner can't ("Every day I hope to find someone who holds eternal light"). The partner has clearly broken the singer's heart and scarred her, but she doesn't want to feel lonely and is delaying the feeling with drinking and distractions, but the situation is casting a darkness over everything and the bitterness is setting in.
However, the lines "You are the first thing I ever saw / And you are the reason why I carry scars" suggests that it could be directed at a parent who mistreated the singer to the point where she can no longer bring herself to love them.
This song speaks to me as a situation where the love the singer once felt has died and the relationship has withered past the state of rescue. The love she once felt has wound up hurting all the time, and she calls it a "strange kind of love" in a tongue-in-cheek way, since that is not love at all. However, she is aware of this and sort of chastises herself for suggesting that love even exists there at all.
She speaks of the void where the other's affections should be ("There’s a hole in your chest / Falling down from Everest") but this person is hanging on to the relationship because they can't let go ("You hold on to everything you can but what is really left?").
The singer's eye is even wandering, looking for someone who can give them what their partner can't ("Every day I hope to find someone who holds eternal light"). The partner has clearly broken the singer's heart and scarred her, but she doesn't want to feel lonely and is delaying the feeling with drinking and distractions, but the situation is casting a darkness over everything and the bitterness is setting in.
However, the lines "You are the first thing I ever saw / And you are the reason why I carry scars" suggests that it could be directed at a parent who mistreated the singer to the point where she can no longer bring herself to love them.