I think he is having suicidal thoughts, By which he means "I don't want to fall away" Or i don't want to die. He wants to change that but he has only so much time before he kills himself (I will take my precious time) He doesn't want anybody to help him, God, Or his choices. (I don't want you're way, i want mine) And how he lies about him being fine (But believe me I'm fine But I'm lying,I'm so very far from fine)
In the next paragraph, he talks about him cutting himself (And I can feel the pull begin I feel my conscience wearing thin And my skin It will start to break up and fall apart) Because of his thoughts. His conscience was demanding him to not kill himself, but it is wearing thin, and he can't control himself.
(Every time I feel selfish ambition Is taking my vision And my crime is my sentence Repentance is taking commission) A selfish ambition takes his normal thoughts, and repentance is starting. The depression gets worst if you don't get help.
(It's taking a toll On my soul I'm screaming submission and, I don't know if I am dying or living) I'm screaming for help, and i don't know if depression is taking over or i am just living
('Cause I will save face For name's sake Abuse grace Take aim to obtain a new name And a newer place) He wants to change by leaving,
(But my name is lame I can't walk and I ain't the same And my name became A new destiny to the grave) He realities that this new thing is lame and he isn't the same, and he should've asked for help before.
I think he is having suicidal thoughts, By which he means "I don't want to fall away" Or i don't want to die. He wants to change that but he has only so much time before he kills himself (I will take my precious time) He doesn't want anybody to help him, God, Or his choices. (I don't want you're way, i want mine) And how he lies about him being fine (But believe me I'm fine But I'm lying,I'm so very far from fine)
In the next paragraph, he talks about him cutting himself (And I can feel the pull begin I feel my conscience wearing thin And my skin It will start to break up and fall apart) Because of his thoughts. His conscience was demanding him to not kill himself, but it is wearing thin, and he can't control himself.
(Every time I feel selfish ambition Is taking my vision And my crime is my sentence Repentance is taking commission) A selfish ambition takes his normal thoughts, and repentance is starting. The depression gets worst if you don't get help. (It's taking a toll On my soul I'm screaming submission and, I don't know if I am dying or living) I'm screaming for help, and i don't know if depression is taking over or i am just living ('Cause I will save face For name's sake Abuse grace Take aim to obtain a new name And a newer place) He wants to change by leaving, (But my name is lame I can't walk and I ain't the same And my name became A new destiny to the grave) He realities that this new thing is lame and he isn't the same, and he should've asked for help before.