This song seems to exist somewhat outside of the narrative of the album, like it's the moral coda to the True Trans Soul Rebel's story. I interpret this song to be about trans erasure, and in general Laura's experience coming out and transitioning.
"I don't ever want to talk that way again
I don't want to know people like that anymore
As if there was an obligation
As if I owed you something"
Before she came out, it's like every conversation she had came with the limiting obligation that she'd act cisgender, out of fear of reproval. It's like she's imprisoning herself to avoid making those with traditional ideas of gender uncomfortable.
"Black me out
I wanna piss on the walls of your house
I wanna chop those brass rings off your fat fucking fingers
As if you were a kingmaker"
The chorus is all the internalized anger that she's felt over the years coming out in full force—she's been pissed on and put down so long, she longs to desecrate every last tradition that held her down, from the houses of the ignorant to the traditional views of marriage.
"Black me out" could refer to the practice of erasing or ignoring trans representation and issues in media. Without proper media representation and coverage, not only is it difficult to gain public support, but it's also difficult to accept yourself or your identity. A trans person seeing another trans person succeeding is extremely encouraging, and reassures that not only is their identity valid, but that it shouldn't hold them back either.
The line, "As if you were a kingmaker," means that by enforcing these traditional ideas of love, gender, marriage, etc., these institutions are essentially playing God, because it interferes with people's personal lives and the opportunities that they have to improve. Essentially, these institutions choose who they'd like to be happy and succeed. It could also refer to people who try to insist that Laura's identity is invalid, and try to assert that she's male—like they're trying to make her a "king."
The last few lines:
"All the young graves filled.
Don't the best all burn out so bright and so fast?
Full-body high, I'm never coming down"
Pretty explicitly describe all the people who've killed themselves or been killed because they were trans. Then it ends on a positive note, about how she regrets nothing about her decision to transition, comparing it to a "full-body high," like she's finally realized her full potential now that her physical appearance aligns with her psychological understanding of herself, and she is able to act the way she wants.
This song seems to exist somewhat outside of the narrative of the album, like it's the moral coda to the True Trans Soul Rebel's story. I interpret this song to be about trans erasure, and in general Laura's experience coming out and transitioning.
"I don't ever want to talk that way again I don't want to know people like that anymore As if there was an obligation As if I owed you something"
Before she came out, it's like every conversation she had came with the limiting obligation that she'd act cisgender, out of fear of reproval. It's like she's imprisoning herself to avoid making those with traditional ideas of gender uncomfortable.
"Black me out I wanna piss on the walls of your house I wanna chop those brass rings off your fat fucking fingers As if you were a kingmaker"
The chorus is all the internalized anger that she's felt over the years coming out in full force—she's been pissed on and put down so long, she longs to desecrate every last tradition that held her down, from the houses of the ignorant to the traditional views of marriage.
"Black me out" could refer to the practice of erasing or ignoring trans representation and issues in media. Without proper media representation and coverage, not only is it difficult to gain public support, but it's also difficult to accept yourself or your identity. A trans person seeing another trans person succeeding is extremely encouraging, and reassures that not only is their identity valid, but that it shouldn't hold them back either.
The line, "As if you were a kingmaker," means that by enforcing these traditional ideas of love, gender, marriage, etc., these institutions are essentially playing God, because it interferes with people's personal lives and the opportunities that they have to improve. Essentially, these institutions choose who they'd like to be happy and succeed. It could also refer to people who try to insist that Laura's identity is invalid, and try to assert that she's male—like they're trying to make her a "king."
The last few lines:
"All the young graves filled. Don't the best all burn out so bright and so fast? Full-body high, I'm never coming down"
Pretty explicitly describe all the people who've killed themselves or been killed because they were trans. Then it ends on a positive note, about how she regrets nothing about her decision to transition, comparing it to a "full-body high," like she's finally realized her full potential now that her physical appearance aligns with her psychological understanding of herself, and she is able to act the way she wants.