i feel like this song is more than drug addiction. like really, it's any kind if addiction. but the vibe i'm getting from this song is that it's leaning towards the addiction of self destruction.
"it consumes me, controls me, leaves me with nothing"
that basically means you're so deep in your self destructive ways that it's become a habit. and every time you harm yourself, you're left to feel numb and empty.
"but you know that i love how it tastes, fear and the fate."
this one's kind of obvious. despite you being aware of your behaviors, you still do it anyways. you do it for that temporary high feeling you get when you "relieve yourself." even though you know that fear and consquences follow.
"product of a murderer, you stole everything from me."
when austin says "product of a murderer", he means whatever you use or do to harm yourself, it's literally the weapon you use against yourself. "you stole everything from me" meaning that this "weapon" has taken away your happiness, your interests in things and people you once loved, and maybe your sanity.
"this is the way i wanted to live. but you know i was scared of the world, praying it all would go away"
basically meaning despite everything that happens, you still want to live this way because (this applies to me, but it may different for you) you feel like if you stopped your self mutilation, you wouldn't be who you are. and that is a good and bad thing. like your ways could have made you more empathetic and emotionally connected with others. but it also made you a danger to yourself. you feel like it's the foundation of your being, and you wouldn't be able to live without it.
and to whoever's reading this: if you feel as i do, i know that things will get better. because i'm aware of this myself. it might not be my time to recover, but one day it'll happen. and i guarantee that it'll happen to you too. it's happened to so many other individuals out there. so why can't it happen to us? we suffer differently, but we still suffer. and suffering always comes to an end. so try to keep your head up, because people care about and love you so much.
i feel like this song is more than drug addiction. like really, it's any kind if addiction. but the vibe i'm getting from this song is that it's leaning towards the addiction of self destruction.
"it consumes me, controls me, leaves me with nothing"
that basically means you're so deep in your self destructive ways that it's become a habit. and every time you harm yourself, you're left to feel numb and empty.
"but you know that i love how it tastes, fear and the fate."
this one's kind of obvious. despite you being aware of your behaviors, you still do it anyways. you do it for that temporary high feeling you get when you "relieve yourself." even though you know that fear and consquences follow.
"product of a murderer, you stole everything from me."
when austin says "product of a murderer", he means whatever you use or do to harm yourself, it's literally the weapon you use against yourself. "you stole everything from me" meaning that this "weapon" has taken away your happiness, your interests in things and people you once loved, and maybe your sanity.
"this is the way i wanted to live. but you know i was scared of the world, praying it all would go away"
basically meaning despite everything that happens, you still want to live this way because (this applies to me, but it may different for you) you feel like if you stopped your self mutilation, you wouldn't be who you are. and that is a good and bad thing. like your ways could have made you more empathetic and emotionally connected with others. but it also made you a danger to yourself. you feel like it's the foundation of your being, and you wouldn't be able to live without it.
and to whoever's reading this: if you feel as i do, i know that things will get better. because i'm aware of this myself. it might not be my time to recover, but one day it'll happen. and i guarantee that it'll happen to you too. it's happened to so many other individuals out there. so why can't it happen to us? we suffer differently, but we still suffer. and suffering always comes to an end. so try to keep your head up, because people care about and love you so much.