I Never Told You What I Do For a Living Lyrics

Lyric discussion by levenin 

Cover art for I Never Told You What I Do For a Living lyrics by My Chemical Romance

Following the album concept: this is the closing to a story.

“just get in line, and I'll grieve you. can I meet you alone?" This is him rounding up the last few "evil souls" upon his quest to be reunited with his lover, Desensitised to all the darkness and bad things he has seen, he without a stutter asks nonchalantly for his victims to line up, so he can kill them quickly and frantically – with it being the final song on the album, this song is full of desperation and frustrated desire, with the man being desperate to see his lover again – something similar to Gerard's inspiration for the album's cover art, which was influenced by Magritte's painting 'The Lovers'.

"Another knife in my hands, a stain that never comes off the sheets. Clean me off, I'm so dirty, babe" Again, a metaphorical use of words. By a stain never coming off the sheets, the narrator is referencing his tainted soul and inability to take back what he's done.

"Touched by angels, though, I fall out of grace. I did it all so maybe I'd live this every day" As a last resort for him to be back with his lover, the narrator has made a deal with the devil to kill 1000 evil souls, and then he can be back with his lover. The 'I fall out of grace' comes from making a deal with the devil, and the sin of murder, all so maybe he could live with his lover once again. The album is dripping with religious imagery – falling out of grace is a bible reference to The Fall, when the angels, out of what is presumably desire and greed, misused their given grace (free will) from God, and so – as the name suggests - fell.

"And we'll all dance alone to the tune of your death; We'll love again, we'll laugh again, and it's better off this way, so much better off this way." By this it means, after he finishes killing the evil souls, everything will be so much better, and they can be reunited as one again. (Or, at least, this is what he's repeating to himself to keep going – the hope drives him to go on. The repetition is comforting to the narrator as he tries to remain calm through all of this, almost like the repetition of a prayer.)

"Never again, and never again, they gave us two shots to the back of the head And we're all dead now." The narrator has been tricked – he had killed 999 evil souls, and only by the time it came to the final one did he realise the 1000th evil soul was his own. Being 'shot in the back of the head' would literally mean as well as the other 999 evil men and his lover, the narrator is now dead, but is also symbolic of the double-crossing and betrayal of the deal.

"Well I tried, I tried! One more night, one more night... Well I'll laugh out, cry out, laugh out loud! I tried, well, I tried." He wants one more chance to be reunited with what he truly believes is his destiny, spending the rest of eternity with his love.

"Cause I tried, but I lied" I think this means, since he was the 1000th evil soul, if he hadn't have "lied" he wouldn't have have been the 1000th evil soul? And he seems to be begging for forgiveness from his lover because he's just trying to tell her that he did try  to be with her, but, because of the wrongs he did, it all came back upon him and it layed him even further away from her in one way.

"And we'll love again, we'll laugh again, we'll cry again and we'll dance again. And it's better off this way, so much better off this way; I can't clean the blood off the sheets in my bed. And never again, and never again, they gave us two shots to the back of the head and we're all dead now." Again, going over what I said before - he can't get rid of the staining of all the wrong he's done from his soul, and nothing can be undone. These lines are tinged with desperation and the last lingering threads of hope, evoking again the repetition of comfort for what he hoped could once be – to laugh, love, cry, dance again – all basic human feelings of emotion he is unable of, possibly because of his desensitisation to the surrounding world, possibly due to the loss of his lover, and possibly due to the loss of himself on this journey.

My Interpretation