Pretty basic stuff, but so well done. Basically, I get a sense that the narrator fucked over a very kind friend at some point in their life (seems to be a competitive/job type of thing, if you look at the first two stanzas -- "success at any cost"). It served them well at the time, but now the narrator feels guilty, wishing they could have been the "fabulous friend" that the friend was to them. The narrator can't accept that they were so thoughtless, and now he paradoxically thinks about this friend, when he didn't at the time of screwing her over. He misses her. The last stanza is just pure self-loathing -- the narrator thinks he "fully deserve[s] to never not feel" (which is a double negative of "always," in the line earlier) guilty about what they did to this friend.
I relate to this song a lot. Screwed over a female friend pretty badly in university, and it still haunts me. I too fully deserve to never not feel guilty about it.
Oh, and that jangle-y melody that plays throughout the song is perfect.
Pretty basic stuff, but so well done. Basically, I get a sense that the narrator fucked over a very kind friend at some point in their life (seems to be a competitive/job type of thing, if you look at the first two stanzas -- "success at any cost"). It served them well at the time, but now the narrator feels guilty, wishing they could have been the "fabulous friend" that the friend was to them. The narrator can't accept that they were so thoughtless, and now he paradoxically thinks about this friend, when he didn't at the time of screwing her over. He misses her. The last stanza is just pure self-loathing -- the narrator thinks he "fully deserve[s] to never not feel" (which is a double negative of "always," in the line earlier) guilty about what they did to this friend.
I relate to this song a lot. Screwed over a female friend pretty badly in university, and it still haunts me. I too fully deserve to never not feel guilty about it. Oh, and that jangle-y melody that plays throughout the song is perfect.