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It's heroin.

"up late at night all alone can't you see that I'm trying? trying so hard to hold on to the things I know"

I know I'm going to use later, but doesn't it look like I'm trying not to? Can't you see me trying? (This is part of the addiction ritual)

"but in the evening I will have to go"

And dopesick is predictable, down to the hour.

"out in the dark, shaking hands"

Dopesick starting, as was expected.

"drifting away from my family towards my foes"

Metaphorical and literal. Leaving home and going to the dope sellers.

"my mother told me you'll reap what you sow"

You cannot escape the consequences of your actions.

"back in my home late at night all alone, I'm flying flying above all my troubles my mind's a gull when I am happy my heart starts to slow"

Opiate hitting brain and CNS. Described perfectly.

"late in the morning I wake all alone, I'm crying crying for all of the people who love me so but when we get sad we know where to go"

Describing the vicious circle...