My friend recently committed suicide and this song is hard to listen to now...
"Where'd you go, you were there by my side
Keep believing it's my turn to hide
In a place where we don't have a prayer
There's a tether that's keeping me there"
I've always thought about doing the same as he did, before and after. But I just can't. There's a tether. I wish he had felt one too.
"Trade our places
Take no chances
Bind me 'til my lips are silent."
I still wished so badly at first that I could have traded places with him. I couldn't say anything like that though. I didn't want anyone to worry or feel like I was attention seeking...I miss him so much. But I know what he was feeling and that's what hurts the most. I want to tell him how much I understood, that he could have talked to me! But I would settle for just switching...then I realize that doesn't fix anything...
"Will we ever get away from this place
It's an image that's burned on my chest"
This is the line that really gets me. We used to talk about someday leaving our hometown, doing something with our lives, getting better. Fuck.
"I'm feeling capable of
Saying it's over
I'm feeling capable of
Seeing the end"
And this is about acceptance of the situation...he's really gone...sometimes I hear it as "I feel incapable of" though. I don't know which one is truer to how I feel right now.
@Aquarius121 Didn't have an account for this site before reading your post. I'm so terribly sorry for your loss. I've had too many friends and family too soon. Even 10+ years later, there's days "I feel incapable of". Sending positive vibes your direction.
@Aquarius121 Didn't have an account for this site before reading your post. I'm so terribly sorry for your loss. I've had too many friends and family too soon. Even 10+ years later, there's days "I feel incapable of". Sending positive vibes your direction.
Thank you. It's comforting in a small way to know there are people that understand and have been where we've been/we are.
Thank you. It's comforting in a small way to know there are people that understand and have been where we've been/we are.
I'm even more amazed that I got to read your reply today, because when I parked my car not two hours ago, I heard "Arms of an Angel" by Sarah McLachlan and bawled my eyes out like it happened yesterday. I know that's a song a lot of people hate or think is overrated. Maybe it is. But it hit me so hard.
I'm even more amazed that I got to read your reply today, because when I parked my car not two hours ago, I heard "Arms of an Angel" by Sarah McLachlan and bawled my eyes out like it happened yesterday. I know that's a song a lot of people hate or think is overrated. Maybe it is. But it hit me so hard.
My friend's father's name is Mike. Can't help but feel it's...
My friend's father's name is Mike. Can't help but feel it's his way of communicating with me! Thank you again, I hope we both become more capable than not. <3
My friend recently committed suicide and this song is hard to listen to now...
"Where'd you go, you were there by my side Keep believing it's my turn to hide In a place where we don't have a prayer There's a tether that's keeping me there"
I've always thought about doing the same as he did, before and after. But I just can't. There's a tether. I wish he had felt one too.
"Trade our places Take no chances Bind me 'til my lips are silent."
I still wished so badly at first that I could have traded places with him. I couldn't say anything like that though. I didn't want anyone to worry or feel like I was attention seeking...I miss him so much. But I know what he was feeling and that's what hurts the most. I want to tell him how much I understood, that he could have talked to me! But I would settle for just switching...then I realize that doesn't fix anything...
"Will we ever get away from this place It's an image that's burned on my chest"
This is the line that really gets me. We used to talk about someday leaving our hometown, doing something with our lives, getting better. Fuck.
"I'm feeling capable of Saying it's over
I'm feeling capable of Seeing the end"
And this is about acceptance of the situation...he's really gone...sometimes I hear it as "I feel incapable of" though. I don't know which one is truer to how I feel right now.
@Aquarius121 Didn't have an account for this site before reading your post. I'm so terribly sorry for your loss. I've had too many friends and family too soon. Even 10+ years later, there's days "I feel incapable of". Sending positive vibes your direction.
@Aquarius121 Didn't have an account for this site before reading your post. I'm so terribly sorry for your loss. I've had too many friends and family too soon. Even 10+ years later, there's days "I feel incapable of". Sending positive vibes your direction.
@mike115064
@mike115064
Thank you. It's comforting in a small way to know there are people that understand and have been where we've been/we are.
Thank you. It's comforting in a small way to know there are people that understand and have been where we've been/we are.
I'm even more amazed that I got to read your reply today, because when I parked my car not two hours ago, I heard "Arms of an Angel" by Sarah McLachlan and bawled my eyes out like it happened yesterday. I know that's a song a lot of people hate or think is overrated. Maybe it is. But it hit me so hard.
I'm even more amazed that I got to read your reply today, because when I parked my car not two hours ago, I heard "Arms of an Angel" by Sarah McLachlan and bawled my eyes out like it happened yesterday. I know that's a song a lot of people hate or think is overrated. Maybe it is. But it hit me so hard.
My friend's father's name is Mike. Can't help but feel it's...
My friend's father's name is Mike. Can't help but feel it's his way of communicating with me! Thank you again, I hope we both become more capable than not. <3