this is one of my favorite songs. it has a lot of personal ties to my life with the references placed into the lyrics, and in general the lyrical content has a lot of personal meaning to me.
i've always taken it as a love letter to a past relationship that had ups and downs. very high ups, very low downs. you spend so much time giving someone your love, finally convincing yourself that you want to be with them despite whatever might be keeping you apart.
you go through the course of a long term relationship, melt with the warmth of them so close to your heart, that had previously maybe been untouched or unaffected by real love. its like when you first met this person, you were a child, and after this person, you are a looking back on the relationship as all these milestones like a video take in your head of how much you grew in your own respect, and also became attached to them.
big teeth small kiss is kind of a play the concept that when you love someone, its almost the same as investing in an otherwise unfamiliar creature that your heart will be unharmed - the emotional heart, vulnerability, is a very delicate portion of a person, and to give someone that and have them kiss every inch of it and nurture it is the sweetest form of surrender because instead of ripping you to pieces they simply nurture and love you in return.
within the chorus, she says "lavender haze, djarum vanilla, turkish jade", lavender haze is a strain of marijuana, djarum vanilla used to be a variety of clove cigarettes, and turkish jade used to be a menthol cigarette made by camel. to me, she speaks of these things much in the way that i reference them in my mind, because it would seem like they are items that probably littered coffee tables during the course of their relationship, while you're just lazing around with your lover smoking or whatever. you see a particular item after the relationship has ended and automatically get transported back to those simple moments where something as trivial as a pack of cigarettes can bring you to tears because you don't have those moments actually related to those items anymore.
"i found you in pieces, you'd been torn apart, a million-one reasons to end before you start." is a line that probably has some direct reference to the writer's experience, but essentially it seems like the person who is being referred to had a very destructive side, maybe careless about their own well being, and felt like remaining in the relationship would only cause more problems for the both of them, thus ending it seemingly before it could 'start' or maybe continue into another phase, perhaps moving in together, or marriage, or what have you, or maybe just simply not feeling capable of 'starting' the rest of their life alone, much less with another person.
the writer says "deep down i knew, no matter what in the end, it'd be me and you" and this to me seems like despite whatever the outcome of these events, this person is tied so deeply into their memories and their growth as a feeling, loving human that no matter who else they see romantically afterward or what happens, there is always that lingering memory of your lover pulling out a cigarette in the hazy sunshine of a random afternoon, just existing together and loving eachother - and almost like an inside joke or a wink of an eye, you still love them, and they still have that special place in your heart that you gave them.
this is one of my favorite songs. it has a lot of personal ties to my life with the references placed into the lyrics, and in general the lyrical content has a lot of personal meaning to me.
i've always taken it as a love letter to a past relationship that had ups and downs. very high ups, very low downs. you spend so much time giving someone your love, finally convincing yourself that you want to be with them despite whatever might be keeping you apart.
you go through the course of a long term relationship, melt with the warmth of them so close to your heart, that had previously maybe been untouched or unaffected by real love. its like when you first met this person, you were a child, and after this person, you are a looking back on the relationship as all these milestones like a video take in your head of how much you grew in your own respect, and also became attached to them.
big teeth small kiss is kind of a play the concept that when you love someone, its almost the same as investing in an otherwise unfamiliar creature that your heart will be unharmed - the emotional heart, vulnerability, is a very delicate portion of a person, and to give someone that and have them kiss every inch of it and nurture it is the sweetest form of surrender because instead of ripping you to pieces they simply nurture and love you in return.
within the chorus, she says "lavender haze, djarum vanilla, turkish jade", lavender haze is a strain of marijuana, djarum vanilla used to be a variety of clove cigarettes, and turkish jade used to be a menthol cigarette made by camel. to me, she speaks of these things much in the way that i reference them in my mind, because it would seem like they are items that probably littered coffee tables during the course of their relationship, while you're just lazing around with your lover smoking or whatever. you see a particular item after the relationship has ended and automatically get transported back to those simple moments where something as trivial as a pack of cigarettes can bring you to tears because you don't have those moments actually related to those items anymore.
"i found you in pieces, you'd been torn apart, a million-one reasons to end before you start." is a line that probably has some direct reference to the writer's experience, but essentially it seems like the person who is being referred to had a very destructive side, maybe careless about their own well being, and felt like remaining in the relationship would only cause more problems for the both of them, thus ending it seemingly before it could 'start' or maybe continue into another phase, perhaps moving in together, or marriage, or what have you, or maybe just simply not feeling capable of 'starting' the rest of their life alone, much less with another person.
the writer says "deep down i knew, no matter what in the end, it'd be me and you" and this to me seems like despite whatever the outcome of these events, this person is tied so deeply into their memories and their growth as a feeling, loving human that no matter who else they see romantically afterward or what happens, there is always that lingering memory of your lover pulling out a cigarette in the hazy sunshine of a random afternoon, just existing together and loving eachother - and almost like an inside joke or a wink of an eye, you still love them, and they still have that special place in your heart that you gave them.