Black Out Days Lyrics

Lyric discussion by Aniform 

Cover art for Black Out Days lyrics by Phantogram

I can't help but feel like this is somehow, even inadvertently, connected to Dissociative Identity Disorder or even just regular dissociation. I have a friend with DID and it just seems like a mirror to them. Black out days are days they don't remember. When the alter takes over, they often have no memory of what has happened, and when they come back, it's like having had a black out. A thousand voices, while being a huge number, reminds me of how sometimes even when that person is themselves, the alter can still echo in their head. Even the mirror on the wall, there's a disconnect between who you are and what you're seeing. I don't know, this is the vibe I'm getting.

My Interpretation

@Aniform I know this is an old comment. Sorry. I just wanted to add, 9 years later, that as being someone who is seeing a professional to try and figure out some sort of diagnosis with this (or differential diagnosis), I agree with this. I am not diagnosed and I can’t be so sure, but to me this song was an awakening. The chaos, the confusion, the disorganized lyrics and references of ‘change’, that background ambient chant that just represents the “noise” or feeling of such to where it’s numb, the dream-like everything, it just… it hits a million different points...

@Aniform @Eirxnos This is the comment I was looking for, as someone diagnosed with DID I can confirm this. Today was a very confusing day for me so I was trying to explain it to ourselves with a song, and this song came instantly to my mind. I feel that the lyrics express perfectly how dissociation may look from the inside

@Aniform bingo! Phantogram says their inspiration for this song is “from their personal struggles with mental health and the desire to express their inner turmoil through their music. The song represents their cathartic journey and their attempt to make sense of the complexities of the human experience.”

As someone with dissociative amnesia, I connected with this song intuitively on all levels and cried like a baby hearing someone finally putting words to what it’s like to miss your memories. There’s forgetting, and then there’s blacking out. I can tell when I’ve dissociated because there is literally a void in my...