I read that his mother had an abortion and tried to kill herself after he was born which makes me think this song could be written partially to the child she didn't have. If it is, I'm not sure I appreciate the anti-abortion sentiment but I digress.
Post-partum depression is very common after child birth and I think the first half of the song could be written to the writer's mother. The line about doing something terrible to her body could be physically true but also mentally. "I'm sorry but I'd rather be getting high than watching the family die" the writer hides in drugs instead of facing the divorce and separation of their family.
The second half could be written to the child she didn't have. "I put your mother through hell" he blames himself for what she is feeling "I hate your brother as well" could be a mutually shared brother or the writer himself. and then saying "I was thinking about killing myself" is sort of a weird twisted apology and "I love you" continuing that guilt.
I read that his mother had an abortion and tried to kill herself after he was born which makes me think this song could be written partially to the child she didn't have. If it is, I'm not sure I appreciate the anti-abortion sentiment but I digress.
Post-partum depression is very common after child birth and I think the first half of the song could be written to the writer's mother. The line about doing something terrible to her body could be physically true but also mentally. "I'm sorry but I'd rather be getting high than watching the family die" the writer hides in drugs instead of facing the divorce and separation of their family.
The second half could be written to the child she didn't have. "I put your mother through hell" he blames himself for what she is feeling "I hate your brother as well" could be a mutually shared brother or the writer himself. and then saying "I was thinking about killing myself" is sort of a weird twisted apology and "I love you" continuing that guilt.