A girl is stuck in a relationship. She's hesitant to leave the relationship, yet she feels self-loathing for staying in it because the person she's with is repulsive in some way/does bad things that she doesn't like. The girl feels that she loves the guy more than he loves her. It seems like their relationship started out real enough, but then he changed and became dark - or she was just blind to/tried to ignore what he was. It's ironic that she's calling herself a monster for staying with him and yet he's so much of a monster for doing whatever's making her consider leaving and/or killing him. The pleasant picture she'd envisioned for their relationship ("when all i wanted was something beautiful") is tarnished by his behavior/what he does and the fact that she allows herself to be with him despite this.
@v8pluver ....Ummm, yes! I'm going through this now! This song really EXPLAINS my shituation to a T! He's been so insulting, belittling, and has done some wacked out stuff to me. Head games from accusing me because someone told him I did something I didn't do (but no one told him anything) to threatening my life, put me in the hospital ICU and I almost died, but him going to prison was my fault and he lost a grandma before he got out & it's he claims that to be unforgivable, to hearing him complaining all the time what he...
@v8pluver ....Ummm, yes! I'm going through this now! This song really EXPLAINS my shituation to a T! He's been so insulting, belittling, and has done some wacked out stuff to me. Head games from accusing me because someone told him I did something I didn't do (but no one told him anything) to threatening my life, put me in the hospital ICU and I almost died, but him going to prison was my fault and he lost a grandma before he got out & it's he claims that to be unforgivable, to hearing him complaining all the time what he thought I was doing wrong, demanding, wait on hand and foot, making me stay home as he left for hours, sending me many text messages n calling to see what I'm doing, where I'm at, who I'm with, asking my son to lie to me and spy on me to tell him what he wants to know, and then the ignoring me, neglecting me, & refusing to touch and love me as I begged for his love. Oh yes, that's just a little example of things I've gone through. He has cheated on me, lied to me, and told me everyday since he felt to come clean with cheating on me by telling me in less than a months time now. And he has already been gone almost a week now, sold our bed, took what he wanted and now saying he's gonna send me to prison with stuff he's collected on me, blames me for it all, and says he don't love me & hopes I die to give someone else who deserves life to breathe the air that's wasted for me....He's made me feel like the most terrible person ever and all I wanted was to be loved. He's made the effort in giving me hell everyday with something absurd that I'm beyond myself how he comes up with the things he does. I'm a mess because of it & have gone through this 12 years so far. I know he did all of this on purpose & that's been his entire plan, what's even more sad & pathetic I I do love him still even after all of that. I've got a heart of gold, I'm forgiving, and don't understand why I'm so terrible to him.
A girl is stuck in a relationship. She's hesitant to leave the relationship, yet she feels self-loathing for staying in it because the person she's with is repulsive in some way/does bad things that she doesn't like. The girl feels that she loves the guy more than he loves her. It seems like their relationship started out real enough, but then he changed and became dark - or she was just blind to/tried to ignore what he was. It's ironic that she's calling herself a monster for staying with him and yet he's so much of a monster for doing whatever's making her consider leaving and/or killing him. The pleasant picture she'd envisioned for their relationship ("when all i wanted was something beautiful") is tarnished by his behavior/what he does and the fact that she allows herself to be with him despite this.
@v8pluver ....Ummm, yes! I'm going through this now! This song really EXPLAINS my shituation to a T! He's been so insulting, belittling, and has done some wacked out stuff to me. Head games from accusing me because someone told him I did something I didn't do (but no one told him anything) to threatening my life, put me in the hospital ICU and I almost died, but him going to prison was my fault and he lost a grandma before he got out & it's he claims that to be unforgivable, to hearing him complaining all the time what he...
@v8pluver ....Ummm, yes! I'm going through this now! This song really EXPLAINS my shituation to a T! He's been so insulting, belittling, and has done some wacked out stuff to me. Head games from accusing me because someone told him I did something I didn't do (but no one told him anything) to threatening my life, put me in the hospital ICU and I almost died, but him going to prison was my fault and he lost a grandma before he got out & it's he claims that to be unforgivable, to hearing him complaining all the time what he thought I was doing wrong, demanding, wait on hand and foot, making me stay home as he left for hours, sending me many text messages n calling to see what I'm doing, where I'm at, who I'm with, asking my son to lie to me and spy on me to tell him what he wants to know, and then the ignoring me, neglecting me, & refusing to touch and love me as I begged for his love. Oh yes, that's just a little example of things I've gone through. He has cheated on me, lied to me, and told me everyday since he felt to come clean with cheating on me by telling me in less than a months time now. And he has already been gone almost a week now, sold our bed, took what he wanted and now saying he's gonna send me to prison with stuff he's collected on me, blames me for it all, and says he don't love me & hopes I die to give someone else who deserves life to breathe the air that's wasted for me....He's made me feel like the most terrible person ever and all I wanted was to be loved. He's made the effort in giving me hell everyday with something absurd that I'm beyond myself how he comes up with the things he does. I'm a mess because of it & have gone through this 12 years so far. I know he did all of this on purpose & that's been his entire plan, what's even more sad & pathetic I I do love him still even after all of that. I've got a heart of gold, I'm forgiving, and don't understand why I'm so terrible to him.