Now, as many have said, this song is very sad and depressing. But I do not believe that it is about dying, as the majority believe. That is too literal. I believe the message is more encrypted than that.
The first stanza is peppered with phrases such as "I have nothing left to give", "You were made to make it hurt", and "I will end were I began" all seem to sound like a bad breakup. He has nothing left to give in a relationship, most likely one that just ended or is ending. She hurt the speaker not physically but emotionally, hence possibly making him believe that's what she was meant to do, it was his destiny to be in this situation. "I will end were I began" means he ends up single, just like before the relationship, which may be his fear or source of sorrow. He doesn't want to be single. "Disappear into the dirt" could mean he is going to be buried, but I believe since it directly follows the line "You were made... hurt", that it references that she is now like all the others that hurt him, she is becoming worthless and "normal", she isn't who he thought she was.
"And I will find the enemy within, cause I can feel it crawl beneath my skin"
Enemy=depression. He doesn't wish to become depressed, perhaps he has been depressed after a similar breakup and doesn't wish to feel that way again. He can feel the sadness within him wanting to express itself but wants to find the source of that sadness and terminate it before he is overwhelmed by depression.
The chorus could revolve around two things either Agony=the girl he is breaking up with OR Agony=depression
Either way the chorus is asking the "agony" to leave", just go and let him be.
In the forth stanza, it describes him dying but he doesn't want to give in, perhaps the depression is so strong he would rather die but keeps fighting to keep the depression within him
The chorus is extended, "I'm so sorry" could be him apologizing to himself or the girl for screwing up (the breakup could be caused by him cheating), and then "Is this the way it's gotta be" could be his attempt at bringing the relationship back together, but he fails.
This next stanza shows a great mood shift. Originally, he still liked the girl and just wanted the depression to go away and was more angry at himself than her. "I'm blue and cold" verifies he is sad or depressed. Now the lines "love pull me down, hate lift me up" shows that the remaining love he has for his ex is what is pulling him into depression and now realizes that hatred towards her is making him feel better, so he starts to hate her instead of love her. "There's nothing left" references him feeling no love for her anymore.
The next two lines are different than the other transitions in the song, this verifies a change in the mood/tone. This references that now he is depressed because he hates who he loves?
The final chorus is just him back in depression because he has no more love for her and wants to feel love again, when is is not in love he is in agony.
Now, as many have said, this song is very sad and depressing. But I do not believe that it is about dying, as the majority believe. That is too literal. I believe the message is more encrypted than that.
The first stanza is peppered with phrases such as "I have nothing left to give", "You were made to make it hurt", and "I will end were I began" all seem to sound like a bad breakup. He has nothing left to give in a relationship, most likely one that just ended or is ending. She hurt the speaker not physically but emotionally, hence possibly making him believe that's what she was meant to do, it was his destiny to be in this situation. "I will end were I began" means he ends up single, just like before the relationship, which may be his fear or source of sorrow. He doesn't want to be single. "Disappear into the dirt" could mean he is going to be buried, but I believe since it directly follows the line "You were made... hurt", that it references that she is now like all the others that hurt him, she is becoming worthless and "normal", she isn't who he thought she was.
"And I will find the enemy within, cause I can feel it crawl beneath my skin" Enemy=depression. He doesn't wish to become depressed, perhaps he has been depressed after a similar breakup and doesn't wish to feel that way again. He can feel the sadness within him wanting to express itself but wants to find the source of that sadness and terminate it before he is overwhelmed by depression.
The chorus could revolve around two things either Agony=the girl he is breaking up with OR Agony=depression Either way the chorus is asking the "agony" to leave", just go and let him be.
In the forth stanza, it describes him dying but he doesn't want to give in, perhaps the depression is so strong he would rather die but keeps fighting to keep the depression within him
The chorus is extended, "I'm so sorry" could be him apologizing to himself or the girl for screwing up (the breakup could be caused by him cheating), and then "Is this the way it's gotta be" could be his attempt at bringing the relationship back together, but he fails.
This next stanza shows a great mood shift. Originally, he still liked the girl and just wanted the depression to go away and was more angry at himself than her. "I'm blue and cold" verifies he is sad or depressed. Now the lines "love pull me down, hate lift me up" shows that the remaining love he has for his ex is what is pulling him into depression and now realizes that hatred towards her is making him feel better, so he starts to hate her instead of love her. "There's nothing left" references him feeling no love for her anymore.
The next two lines are different than the other transitions in the song, this verifies a change in the mood/tone. This references that now he is depressed because he hates who he loves?
The final chorus is just him back in depression because he has no more love for her and wants to feel love again, when is is not in love he is in agony.
@Waldo1021 Check out my comment above, hes talking to his mystery illness, hes afraid of it killing him.
@Waldo1021 Check out my comment above, hes talking to his mystery illness, hes afraid of it killing him.