This is really long and rather detailed but I'm gonna take a stab at it anyway cause I feel I can relate to it really strongly.
I'm kinda getting the impression it's about a guy in a relationship with someone while he battles a mental illness - possibly anxiety, depression or even someone with anger management issues - and this is his way of warning the girl of what they're up for if their relationship continues.
Couple of ideas to support this:
"Love like a needle full of methadone
Potent but not real, left you wanting more"
The guy feels like the girl's love for them is a painkiller; basically a safety of some sort to keep him/her happy. This person knows it's not a real kind of love and wants a more realistic and "meaningful" love, if that makes any sense.
"Like unstable chemicals combining only to explode"
This is where I think it turns from the guy explaining that he's messed up to explaining to the girl that this is what she's in for by staying with him. Gives me the idea that he's been trying to make himself happy on his own terms (and not just rely on her love to bring him happiness) but isn't making any progress, and a false sense of security of happiness (her love) combined with the insecurities that plague anyone with depression or anxiety just keeps causing him to overthink and worry about whether he's really happy after all. I dunno, it makes sense to me.
"I am a heart on fire and all the world's a fuse so don't get close"
To me this is really similar to The Fault In Our Stars in the sense that Hazel compares herself and her condition to a grenade and how one day, she doesn't know when, she'll relapse and her sickness will destroy more than just herself. It comes as the guy's warning to the girl that one day his mental illness may cause him to do something really stupid and end up hurting her in one way or another.
"The trouble and the worth, am I better off on my own?"
I myself have struggled with anxiety and depression for the better part of five years now; I can tell you now, this is a very common thought of insecurity that clouds a lot of sufferers of mental illness. Circling back to the first part of the chorus, he's warning the girl that he may unintentionally hurt her down the track, but at the same time he worries about whether it's worth sacrificing their relationship for the sake of eliminating the risk of hurting her altogether.
The entire second verse is full of analogies and metaphors related to how people with anxiety and depression can feel on a daily basis. "I'm not good enough", "I feel like people are just tossing my useless self aside", "nothing's going right and it'll never get any better", etc.
The line in the second pre-chorus, "for you there's still a chance, just let go", I think it circles back to him worrying about the sacrifice and eliminating the risk that I talked about with the chorus. It's his way of giving her a way out right then and there if she wants to eliminate any risk of getting hurt later on.
This is what I got from it anyway. Hope this helps.
This is really long and rather detailed but I'm gonna take a stab at it anyway cause I feel I can relate to it really strongly.
I'm kinda getting the impression it's about a guy in a relationship with someone while he battles a mental illness - possibly anxiety, depression or even someone with anger management issues - and this is his way of warning the girl of what they're up for if their relationship continues.
Couple of ideas to support this:
"Love like a needle full of methadone Potent but not real, left you wanting more" The guy feels like the girl's love for them is a painkiller; basically a safety of some sort to keep him/her happy. This person knows it's not a real kind of love and wants a more realistic and "meaningful" love, if that makes any sense.
"Like unstable chemicals combining only to explode" This is where I think it turns from the guy explaining that he's messed up to explaining to the girl that this is what she's in for by staying with him. Gives me the idea that he's been trying to make himself happy on his own terms (and not just rely on her love to bring him happiness) but isn't making any progress, and a false sense of security of happiness (her love) combined with the insecurities that plague anyone with depression or anxiety just keeps causing him to overthink and worry about whether he's really happy after all. I dunno, it makes sense to me.
"I am a heart on fire and all the world's a fuse so don't get close" To me this is really similar to The Fault In Our Stars in the sense that Hazel compares herself and her condition to a grenade and how one day, she doesn't know when, she'll relapse and her sickness will destroy more than just herself. It comes as the guy's warning to the girl that one day his mental illness may cause him to do something really stupid and end up hurting her in one way or another.
"The trouble and the worth, am I better off on my own?" I myself have struggled with anxiety and depression for the better part of five years now; I can tell you now, this is a very common thought of insecurity that clouds a lot of sufferers of mental illness. Circling back to the first part of the chorus, he's warning the girl that he may unintentionally hurt her down the track, but at the same time he worries about whether it's worth sacrificing their relationship for the sake of eliminating the risk of hurting her altogether.
The entire second verse is full of analogies and metaphors related to how people with anxiety and depression can feel on a daily basis. "I'm not good enough", "I feel like people are just tossing my useless self aside", "nothing's going right and it'll never get any better", etc.
The line in the second pre-chorus, "for you there's still a chance, just let go", I think it circles back to him worrying about the sacrifice and eliminating the risk that I talked about with the chorus. It's his way of giving her a way out right then and there if she wants to eliminate any risk of getting hurt later on.
This is what I got from it anyway. Hope this helps.