People tend to think the song is about war when it's actually about God vs self. The band is undoubtedly Christian, I could prove it. This album as a whole is a concept album, or at least kind of like one, going from the beginning in which he lives his life without God, in the middle at his darkest point (this song beginning his realization), and at the end converts, which is why the whole mood brightens up at Sing and onward.
This song is specifically about how he's trying to hang on to non-Christian life just before converting. He is realizing that life is death without life after death. Every convert to Christianity goes through a sick feeling of having no way to deal with our world.
The ending where he says, "I'm free to drift and free to die on my terms now," is the final rebellious statement before his conversion, not wanting to convert yet, but believing his actions still come with consequences.
Regret is what he's feeling for wasting his life, and sputtering out is an absolute giving up of depending on himself instead of on God.
People tend to think the song is about war when it's actually about God vs self. The band is undoubtedly Christian, I could prove it. This album as a whole is a concept album, or at least kind of like one, going from the beginning in which he lives his life without God, in the middle at his darkest point (this song beginning his realization), and at the end converts, which is why the whole mood brightens up at Sing and onward.
This song is specifically about how he's trying to hang on to non-Christian life just before converting. He is realizing that life is death without life after death. Every convert to Christianity goes through a sick feeling of having no way to deal with our world. The ending where he says, "I'm free to drift and free to die on my terms now," is the final rebellious statement before his conversion, not wanting to convert yet, but believing his actions still come with consequences. Regret is what he's feeling for wasting his life, and sputtering out is an absolute giving up of depending on himself instead of on God.