I'm not sure if this is what the writer of this song meant, but this is what I think it means:
He’s trying to find a place, that doesn't exist, because he wants to hide. He wants to hide, because he feels like he did something horrible and has to carry a lot of weight and guilt. He wants to be forgiven, but he knows he won’t be forgiven.
But he kept hoping for a new tomorrow, a new life.
He was trying to forget and made himself believe he really did forget. But then, he realizes he never really would. That he was just kidding himself, that he will always remember. And all the memories and emotions came back, but stronger and more painful. And he knows he’ll never be happy again.
He hoped that things would change and he would be happy again, but he never did. Everyone wanted him to and told him he should make a change in his life. Everyone was trying to get him back at his feet, but he never did. He never recovered, because he kept feeling guilty.
I'm not sure if this is what the writer of this song meant, but this is what I think it means:
He’s trying to find a place, that doesn't exist, because he wants to hide. He wants to hide, because he feels like he did something horrible and has to carry a lot of weight and guilt. He wants to be forgiven, but he knows he won’t be forgiven.
But he kept hoping for a new tomorrow, a new life. He was trying to forget and made himself believe he really did forget. But then, he realizes he never really would. That he was just kidding himself, that he will always remember. And all the memories and emotions came back, but stronger and more painful. And he knows he’ll never be happy again.
He hoped that things would change and he would be happy again, but he never did. Everyone wanted him to and told him he should make a change in his life. Everyone was trying to get him back at his feet, but he never did. He never recovered, because he kept feeling guilty.