So firstly I'd just want to say that there is not only one interpretation to any BMTH song. Escpecially this one, this is my all time favorite song from all and I'll share my interpretation with you now.
[Spoken]
And then I found out how hard it is to really change.
Even hell can get comfy once you've settled in.
Here he is try to say how its so hard to change because some bad things become habits to you. And first you hate them, later you get used to them and in the end you start to love them so much, no matter how much they hurt you. You want them to stay.
I just wanted the numb inside me to leave.
So as most of you know Oli's story about drug addiction, depression and things like that... And things like that make you numb. You stop feeling anything. Thats worst, and all you wanna do is feel something. Warm or cold it doesnt even matter now, just anything to feel alive. That is why we do it all, to feel alive.
No matter how fucked you get, there's always hell when you come back down.
This practically means that no matter how high, drunk or wasted you get, theres always moment after hours of all that when you realize it didnt help, pain is still here, always will be...
The funny thing is all I ever wanted I already had.
There's glimpses of heaven in every day.
In the friends I have, the music I make, the love that I feel.
I just had to start again.
So here he is saying what motivated him to change, what made him stop drugs. He realized he have great friends who care, job that he fucking adores, girl of his fucking dreams. He couldnt let his friend, girl or fans suffer any more. He changed 'cause of them...
The days are a death wish
A witch hunt for an exit
I am powerless...
Here he is saying how he wants death to come every day. Suicide thoughts. Everything just to end this all. Witch hunt represents state where everything is allowed, you can do anything and all will be forgiven only if you kill the witch (pain). So were all looking for an escape of this all: drink or drug or pill or blade; we all have our ways... But whatever he do, he cannot make the pain go away, he is powerless.
The fragile, the broken
Sit in circles and stay unspoken
We are powerless...
He speaks in name of all of us who feel way like he do. He says we are weak and broken, fucked up. We should sit together in circle and theres no need for us to say our stories, theyre all very similiar, we just need to be close to each other, be saviour one to another...
Because we all walk alone on an empty staircase
Silent halls and nameless faces
I am powerless...
We wonder around mental hospitals and therapists and their buildings and halls and bunch of people out there pretending they can help us. But they cant, only we could help ourselves, but we are powerless...
Everybody wants to go to Heaven
But nobody wants to die
I can't fear death no longer
I've died a thousand times
Here he says how people keep being "good" in life so they can go to Heaven and they dont enjoy life at all, he says if they want Heaven so much why dont they just die now. He says he doesnt fear death cause he died 1000 times. Thats every time he wanted to end his life, every time he was broken, every time he didnt live, just tried to survive the day hoping next will be better.
Why explore the universe
When we don't know ourselves?
I'd say this is pretty clear. People pretend they know everything about world, but they know least about human mind.
There's an emptiness inside our heads
That no one dares to dwell...
He says theres an emptiness inside our heads, that represents how fucked up we all are, and thats the reason why no one wants to stay, everyone keep leaving...
Throw me to the flames
Watch me burn!
Set my world ablaze
Watch me burn!
Flames are death. He says kill me. Start killing me and watch me dying. Kill my whole world and watch me die. Cause if you truely love me you will want death on me as much as I want it to myself.
How are we on a scale of one to ten?
Could you tell me what you see?
Do you wanna talk about it?
How does that make you feel?
These are the pointless questions therapists and councoulers are asking us. Problem is that most of the time we dont know how to explain them what we feel cause its like they cannot understand it...
Have you ever took a blade to your wrists?
Have you been skipping meals?
We're gonna try something new today
How does that make you feel?
Have you ever cut yourself just to try to feel better? Have you ever starved yourself so you can like your body a bit more. We are gonna try some new approach to you today, tell me do you feel loved now?
Hold me close, don't let go
Watch me (burn)
Hold me close, don't let go
Watch me (burn)
Hold me close, don't let go
Watch me (burn)
In this hospital for souls
Here he says that all we actually need is love. We want to feel loved. We want to be held by person we love and just be there, feel warm and safe, to feel that no matter what our problems are that all will be okay. Hold me, and watch me how I die everyday and how I lost energy to live long time ago and stay. Dont get scared and leave, I know Im a risk that you cannot afford and that nothing is certain with me, but stay... just stay here with me in this hospital for souls...
So firstly I'd just want to say that there is not only one interpretation to any BMTH song. Escpecially this one, this is my all time favorite song from all and I'll share my interpretation with you now.
[Spoken] And then I found out how hard it is to really change. Even hell can get comfy once you've settled in.
Here he is try to say how its so hard to change because some bad things become habits to you. And first you hate them, later you get used to them and in the end you start to love them so much, no matter how much they hurt you. You want them to stay.
I just wanted the numb inside me to leave.
So as most of you know Oli's story about drug addiction, depression and things like that... And things like that make you numb. You stop feeling anything. Thats worst, and all you wanna do is feel something. Warm or cold it doesnt even matter now, just anything to feel alive. That is why we do it all, to feel alive.
No matter how fucked you get, there's always hell when you come back down.
This practically means that no matter how high, drunk or wasted you get, theres always moment after hours of all that when you realize it didnt help, pain is still here, always will be...
The funny thing is all I ever wanted I already had. There's glimpses of heaven in every day. In the friends I have, the music I make, the love that I feel. I just had to start again.
So here he is saying what motivated him to change, what made him stop drugs. He realized he have great friends who care, job that he fucking adores, girl of his fucking dreams. He couldnt let his friend, girl or fans suffer any more. He changed 'cause of them...
The days are a death wish A witch hunt for an exit I am powerless...
Here he is saying how he wants death to come every day. Suicide thoughts. Everything just to end this all. Witch hunt represents state where everything is allowed, you can do anything and all will be forgiven only if you kill the witch (pain). So were all looking for an escape of this all: drink or drug or pill or blade; we all have our ways... But whatever he do, he cannot make the pain go away, he is powerless.
The fragile, the broken Sit in circles and stay unspoken We are powerless...
He speaks in name of all of us who feel way like he do. He says we are weak and broken, fucked up. We should sit together in circle and theres no need for us to say our stories, theyre all very similiar, we just need to be close to each other, be saviour one to another...
Because we all walk alone on an empty staircase Silent halls and nameless faces I am powerless...
We wonder around mental hospitals and therapists and their buildings and halls and bunch of people out there pretending they can help us. But they cant, only we could help ourselves, but we are powerless...
Everybody wants to go to Heaven But nobody wants to die I can't fear death no longer I've died a thousand times
Here he says how people keep being "good" in life so they can go to Heaven and they dont enjoy life at all, he says if they want Heaven so much why dont they just die now. He says he doesnt fear death cause he died 1000 times. Thats every time he wanted to end his life, every time he was broken, every time he didnt live, just tried to survive the day hoping next will be better.
Why explore the universe When we don't know ourselves?
I'd say this is pretty clear. People pretend they know everything about world, but they know least about human mind.
There's an emptiness inside our heads That no one dares to dwell...
He says theres an emptiness inside our heads, that represents how fucked up we all are, and thats the reason why no one wants to stay, everyone keep leaving...
Throw me to the flames Watch me burn! Set my world ablaze Watch me burn!
Flames are death. He says kill me. Start killing me and watch me dying. Kill my whole world and watch me die. Cause if you truely love me you will want death on me as much as I want it to myself.
How are we on a scale of one to ten? Could you tell me what you see? Do you wanna talk about it? How does that make you feel?
These are the pointless questions therapists and councoulers are asking us. Problem is that most of the time we dont know how to explain them what we feel cause its like they cannot understand it...
Have you ever took a blade to your wrists? Have you been skipping meals? We're gonna try something new today How does that make you feel?
Have you ever cut yourself just to try to feel better? Have you ever starved yourself so you can like your body a bit more. We are gonna try some new approach to you today, tell me do you feel loved now?
Hold me close, don't let go Watch me (burn) Hold me close, don't let go Watch me (burn) Hold me close, don't let go Watch me (burn) In this hospital for souls
Here he says that all we actually need is love. We want to feel loved. We want to be held by person we love and just be there, feel warm and safe, to feel that no matter what our problems are that all will be okay. Hold me, and watch me how I die everyday and how I lost energy to live long time ago and stay. Dont get scared and leave, I know Im a risk that you cannot afford and that nothing is certain with me, but stay... just stay here with me in this hospital for souls...