"Oh am I clean?
Nineteen
They said sex will keep you young and make you older at the same time
They said sex will have left you aged normally"
On Yoni's podcast he mentions that he lost his virginity at 19. I think that may be the premise for the song.
The "Am I clean" line could be interpreted in a number of ways. Maybe he felt morally filthy after having sex, especially if he just did it to do it and not be virgin anymore. It could also have a double meaning with him being a virgin feeling like a weight on his shoulders, like some baggage he'd been carrying around for too long and after shedding it all off, asks if he's finally clean. Which would make sense with all the pressure our society and culture place on men to be hypersexual in their teenage years.
"I conquered my own childhood silence
And now the world is my lit confessional marquee"
The childhood silence could just be referencing an absence of sex while growing up.
However, on his podcast he also talks about how he was very shy and quite as a kid.
Perhaps having sex was something that helped him come out of his shell.
And maybe that lead to him being able to better express himself/get some of the deeper, darker shit off his chest -- which is actually one of the reasons why I really admire his work.
Not all, but many artists' -- especially hip-hop artists/rappers -- lyrics seem to build up their egos, while Yoni's is usually tearing his down, talking about things like hair loss, disease, porn/masturbation, shame/depression, psychological disorders, etc.
There's just this realness and sincerity to Yoni that's very hard to come by. You can tell that, for him, music is usually more for therapeutic purposes than it is for entertainment or business.
"Oh am I clean? Nineteen They said sex will keep you young and make you older at the same time They said sex will have left you aged normally"
On Yoni's podcast he mentions that he lost his virginity at 19. I think that may be the premise for the song. The "Am I clean" line could be interpreted in a number of ways. Maybe he felt morally filthy after having sex, especially if he just did it to do it and not be virgin anymore. It could also have a double meaning with him being a virgin feeling like a weight on his shoulders, like some baggage he'd been carrying around for too long and after shedding it all off, asks if he's finally clean. Which would make sense with all the pressure our society and culture place on men to be hypersexual in their teenage years.
The childhood silence could just be referencing an absence of sex while growing up. However, on his podcast he also talks about how he was very shy and quite as a kid. Perhaps having sex was something that helped him come out of his shell. And maybe that lead to him being able to better express himself/get some of the deeper, darker shit off his chest -- which is actually one of the reasons why I really admire his work. Not all, but many artists' -- especially hip-hop artists/rappers -- lyrics seem to build up their egos, while Yoni's is usually tearing his down, talking about things like hair loss, disease, porn/masturbation, shame/depression, psychological disorders, etc.
There's just this realness and sincerity to Yoni that's very hard to come by. You can tell that, for him, music is usually more for therapeutic purposes than it is for entertainment or business.