It seems to me that this song is talking about how he would try to find a source for his problems (arguing my case to the wee hours of the night), when in fact the source was his own attraction to sadness (rather be unhappy that's the cause of it all). He blamed everything on his stepfather, and thought that with that realisation everything would be okay (put it in your face and let the petals fall, cursing your family name). That blame was useful, it helped him give his negative feelings a focus, but it was not the real problem (That's a useful dream that pretended to explain). He's tired of trying to find someone to blame and of trying to hide his pain and the truth, but realizes it plain to see (Tired of looking sideways, but the thing's in black and white). Beautiful song.
It seems to me that this song is talking about how he would try to find a source for his problems (arguing my case to the wee hours of the night), when in fact the source was his own attraction to sadness (rather be unhappy that's the cause of it all). He blamed everything on his stepfather, and thought that with that realisation everything would be okay (put it in your face and let the petals fall, cursing your family name). That blame was useful, it helped him give his negative feelings a focus, but it was not the real problem (That's a useful dream that pretended to explain). He's tired of trying to find someone to blame and of trying to hide his pain and the truth, but realizes it plain to see (Tired of looking sideways, but the thing's in black and white). Beautiful song.