Little Things

Funny thing here, a paradox actually. I am a heroin addict and it would take a heroin addict to describe this. But, I'm recovering (probably relapse 4 more times statistically...) and am sober for today. Here is what it means, line by line;

I bleach the sky every night - this is a reference about bleaching needles to avoid bacterial contamination.

Loaded on wrong and further from right - Obvious statement that this song isn't about anything but drugs to me. you interpret it

two howling moons - possibly a reference to the fact that day and night are the same, always dark places when you are addicted

The river is loaded I've been there today - this is a reference to one of two things, 1 the river being veins are now loaded (I'm loaded yo) 2 the fact that open air drug markets are almost always near a river (founding point of a town usually) which is also most cities down towns. i.e. Denver, Seattle, etc.. (Yes, us heroin addicts know where to score almost anywhere :)

took in some questions she does me again - Asked myself the same damn questions I ask everytime before I shoot up, "why am I doing this? When will I stop ?". She (her, heroin, female hero) does me again. Even after the questions and the mental know not to, the drug makes you do it.

I would die in your arms if you were dead too- If you died, I would die with you. In your arms. Being useless and metabolized. This one is pretty straight forward

Here comes a lie, we will always be true - This is about lying to your friends why you don't want to hang out with them and what for. Lying to people about being an addict, lying to dealers and family. Doesn't feel like it, but you slowly start lying till your whole life is a lie

Going up and coming down, scratch away way way - this is about getting high and chasing it. Scratch away is a major reference to the histamine release the opiates cause, known as the "opiate itch"

Little things that kill - Either a reference to the fact that little things (heroin) can kill. Or a reference to getting irritated and snappy at people for little things (this usually only happens to people who have more money and can stay high.

The bigger you give, the bigger you get - Reference to buying the drug. The more you give the more you get

We're boss at denial, but best at forget - Good at denying our addictions and realities, but better at forgetting about them

The cupboard is empty we really need food - this is little things about life slipping away. Forgetting to eat (caused by the nausea and constipation of opiates. this is one of two possible reference to meth. This song is undoubtedly about heroin to me, but lyrics are for you to understand.

Summer is winter and you always knew - The fact that you become numb to cold and hot. Opiates stop sweating as much and also block the feeling of cold. You always knew is a reference to the person to introduced it? Summer and winter are stored in memory for addicts the same... It's weird but true

My willy is food? Thats not right. My will is food - look it up on other sites if you don't believe. This is another reference to how the drug takes precidence over food. It's will overcomes food, sex, water, friendship...

I kill you once, I kill you again - either a reference to relapsing over and over, most addicts take 9 times to stop. Or to the ODing caused by heroin that most people don't die from. I prefer the latter

I'm addicted to love, im addicted to bullshit - The delusion that you loved the heroin in the beginning, and now hate it. It's bullshit because you do love it and hate it. It's a bullshit relationship

We are starving and crude, welcome my friend to the little things that kill - a reference to how addicts become.