I've always personally read the "make me see it's my last year" as JS accepting he can't live on memories alone and looking for validation in deciding to end it all, sort of playing off the "when I give in, will it be okay?" line that precedes it.
I've always personally read the "make me see it's my last year" as JS accepting he can't live on memories alone and looking for validation in deciding to end it all, sort of playing off the "when I give in, will it be okay?" line that precedes it.