I actually think this song means much more than only drugs and alcohol.
It's like a shout from the inside trying to escape from oneself.
"Forgive me father. I love you mother" Is like a state trying to say that (s)he regrets all the bad decisions made that hurt others (something quite common when we feel we're a failure)
I think the lyrics are asking for help, asking for a route of escape, a way of change.
Also:
"I'm scared to get close and I hate being alone
I long for that feeling to not feel at all
The higher I get, the lower I'll sink
I can't drown my demons, they know how to swim"
That part I think it's more about the fact that we feel hopeless and helpless and without strength, meaning at the end that our mind - the negative thoughts and the demons we rise - are, usually, way more powerful than our will to change because they are scary and unknown. It's like a way of saying that we he prefers to feel numb, but that also means he will stay alone with the demons inside his mind.
I actually think this song means much more than only drugs and alcohol. It's like a shout from the inside trying to escape from oneself. "Forgive me father. I love you mother" Is like a state trying to say that (s)he regrets all the bad decisions made that hurt others (something quite common when we feel we're a failure) I think the lyrics are asking for help, asking for a route of escape, a way of change. Also: "I'm scared to get close and I hate being alone I long for that feeling to not feel at all The higher I get, the lower I'll sink I can't drown my demons, they know how to swim" That part I think it's more about the fact that we feel hopeless and helpless and without strength, meaning at the end that our mind - the negative thoughts and the demons we rise - are, usually, way more powerful than our will to change because they are scary and unknown. It's like a way of saying that we he prefers to feel numb, but that also means he will stay alone with the demons inside his mind.