Everything At Once Lyrics

Lyric discussion by nurlaila10 

Cover art for Everything At Once lyrics by Lenka

i like how all she said was so beautifully (her voice so cute). then, she wants to be all of the good in this word, like a most perfect person than the other, but in several lyric she said the opposite like "ugly as a toad" that i think it's okay if isn't good at all but she must become something although anything am i right?