Dance Slow Decades Lyrics

Lyric discussion by TheWrongGirl 

Cover art for Dance Slow Decades lyrics by Angel Olsen

there are some parts i'm unsure of here. for example, "thought i had ideas once... but they were all alone"... i'm not sure if she's saying "alone"... maybe it's "unknown," or any other number of possibilities :)

but if you have any suggestions, i appreciate the help.

I think she's saying 'all on loan' at that part. As in she had adopted the ideas of her significant other only to realize they didn't hold true for her when she became independent.