"I have faith but don't believe it.
It's not there enough to leave it."
Personally I interpret this verse as someone struggling with leaving his religion and come to terms with being an atheist.
"I have only two emotions,
careful fear and dead devotion.
I can't get the balance right."
This is about someone who can't tell whether he believes in god because of fear of not fitting in with others or whether he really believe in god with all his heart.
"Everything I love is on the table.
Everything I love is out to sea.
I'm not alone.
I'll never be."
This is about him knowing that he's not the only atheist but it is too much to risk for for him to state his belief out loud.
"I have faith but don't believe it. It's not there enough to leave it."
Personally I interpret this verse as someone struggling with leaving his religion and come to terms with being an atheist.
"I have only two emotions, careful fear and dead devotion. I can't get the balance right."
This is about someone who can't tell whether he believes in god because of fear of not fitting in with others or whether he really believe in god with all his heart.
"Everything I love is on the table. Everything I love is out to sea. I'm not alone. I'll never be."
This is about him knowing that he's not the only atheist but it is too much to risk for for him to state his belief out loud.