Say Something

This song makes me so sad. I can completely relate to it. For the past year in a half I have been dating someone who I was friends with for nearly seven years. He moved to another country and I have been the one who would travel there every month to see him. I always did everything I could to make his life more comfortable. Gave 100% of me and did everything he liked with him but the favor was hardly ever returned. Loving a selfish person is hard but I tried my best. I even let him know many times that I would be willing to move there and give up my family, friends and life for him.

"Anywhere, I would've followed you." - I really would have gone anywhere for him.

I daydreamed about having a family and future with him but he never talked about those things with me. It was so hard, he lived so far away and I would have had to give up so much to be with him but that didn't bother me at all. That was just how much I loved him but I was so frustrated that he never talked about a future with me. He wanted me to move in with him, but without a commitment. I just don't understand how he could have had this type of expectation and feel right about even asking me this without a commitment.

"I'll be the one, if you want me to." - I broke up with him. I told him to take as much time as he needs. When he's ready, he can let me know and if i am still single then we can take things from there. Hard to believe but he asked me if I could try not to date other people while he thinks about us. Is that crazy? How could I have loved someone so much who is this type of person? Was I really that blinded by love?

I do know that he cares about me a lot but I can't settle for a mediocre relationship. I read this quote once and it has been stuck in my head:

"Unless it's mad, passionate, extraordinary love, it's a waste of your time. There are too many mediocre things in life. Love shouldn't be one of them."

"And I am feeling so small. It was over my head. I know nothing at all." This really hurts. Yes, I was way over my head. What was I thinking? "And I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you. And anywhere, I would have followed you." - Too bad things didn't work out. I really would have followed him anywhere.

"Say something, I'm giving up on you." - I broke up with him, I give up. I gave him my best. He took me for granted and it was time I put myself first.

Just a couple days ago I met someone pretty amazing in my city. It's crazy. It was like I made a wish and this amazing wish came true. This new guy is drop dead gorgeous, better looking than George Clooney, highly successful, the perfect gentleman and has all the qualities I like in a person. I made a list of all the qualities I wanted in a partner. It's crazy. Everything on my list, this guy has it. All of it! The last guy did not even meet a quarter of the qualities I wanted in a person. I finally see now that I was stupid to have been so blinded before.

Love yourself first. Don't let anyone take you for granted. They don't deserve you if they do not treat you how you treat them.