I've always thought this song was about struggling with depression. Self-medicating with recreation drugs and/or alcohol. A suicide attempt/drug overdose.
I believe this song is out of chronological order, for me it's easier to see the meaning of the story in this order.
"I need someone a person to talk to, someone who'd care to love
Could it be you could it be you?"
This is his cry for help. He's in such a deep state of depression that he will attach himself to anyone that shows him the slightest bit of attention, hoping that they will be his savior, prove him wrong that there's still someone out there that's worth sticking around for.
"The situation is rough & I start to panic, it's not enough, it's just a habit.
Hey kid you're sick, well darling this is it."
Referring to self-medicating anxiety and depression, which many do, though often it's not enough to help and after all you end up developing an addiction. It just ends up making things worse. He realizes that it's just a temporary fix for all of his problems. He chooses to finally just end his life, goodbye, "this is it."
"I take one cause you left me and two for my family and three for my heartache and four for my headaches and five for my lonely and six for my sorrow and seven for no tomorrow and eight I forget what eight was for and nine for a lost god and ten for everything"
Pretty self-explanatory, he gave each pill a reason for why he's taking it to make it easier to swallow.
"I hope you know that this will go down on your permanent record,"
Often having suicide attempts and/or drug overdoses in your history will haunt you & be on your permanent medical records.
"Well don't get so distressed, did I happen to mention that I'm impressed."
People are reacting to his suicide attempt and/or drug overdose, he's telling them not to pretend like they care & he makes a joke of it saying that he's impressed that he actually survived after having taken so many pills.
"You can all just kiss off into the air, behind my back I can see them stare
They'll hurt me bad but I won't mind, they'll hurt me bad they do it all the time"
After overdosing, he's telling all the people who had pushed him to that point, criticized him, talked about his nasty habits, his overdose, etc., that they can all basically just go screw themselves. He's done caring about what they think, letting them affect him. He's finally just become numb to it all.
Nice. I was attempting some of your ideals in a short sentence. Also. to me, a lot of the lines could easily be the banter at the shrink or therapist. It touches me in a way that people with a mental illness are not accepted by a scrutinizing, non-understanding and "ill" informed society. Maybe the individual is deciding to stop his own denial and finally taking steps towards his own wellness. I think the inevitable "kiss off" to others is the first step in the right direction. Obviously, the "normals" have been saying it to him for a...
Nice. I was attempting some of your ideals in a short sentence. Also. to me, a lot of the lines could easily be the banter at the shrink or therapist. It touches me in a way that people with a mental illness are not accepted by a scrutinizing, non-understanding and "ill" informed society. Maybe the individual is deciding to stop his own denial and finally taking steps towards his own wellness. I think the inevitable "kiss off" to others is the first step in the right direction. Obviously, the "normals" have been saying it to him for a long time. Oh, I forgot, the list does match my med intake and the situations are all too true...
I've always thought this song was about struggling with depression. Self-medicating with recreation drugs and/or alcohol. A suicide attempt/drug overdose.
I believe this song is out of chronological order, for me it's easier to see the meaning of the story in this order.
"I need someone a person to talk to, someone who'd care to love Could it be you could it be you?" This is his cry for help. He's in such a deep state of depression that he will attach himself to anyone that shows him the slightest bit of attention, hoping that they will be his savior, prove him wrong that there's still someone out there that's worth sticking around for.
"The situation is rough & I start to panic, it's not enough, it's just a habit. Hey kid you're sick, well darling this is it." Referring to self-medicating anxiety and depression, which many do, though often it's not enough to help and after all you end up developing an addiction. It just ends up making things worse. He realizes that it's just a temporary fix for all of his problems. He chooses to finally just end his life, goodbye, "this is it."
"I take one cause you left me and two for my family and three for my heartache and four for my headaches and five for my lonely and six for my sorrow and seven for no tomorrow and eight I forget what eight was for and nine for a lost god and ten for everything" Pretty self-explanatory, he gave each pill a reason for why he's taking it to make it easier to swallow.
"I hope you know that this will go down on your permanent record," Often having suicide attempts and/or drug overdoses in your history will haunt you & be on your permanent medical records.
"Well don't get so distressed, did I happen to mention that I'm impressed." People are reacting to his suicide attempt and/or drug overdose, he's telling them not to pretend like they care & he makes a joke of it saying that he's impressed that he actually survived after having taken so many pills.
"You can all just kiss off into the air, behind my back I can see them stare They'll hurt me bad but I won't mind, they'll hurt me bad they do it all the time" After overdosing, he's telling all the people who had pushed him to that point, criticized him, talked about his nasty habits, his overdose, etc., that they can all basically just go screw themselves. He's done caring about what they think, letting them affect him. He's finally just become numb to it all.
Nice. I was attempting some of your ideals in a short sentence. Also. to me, a lot of the lines could easily be the banter at the shrink or therapist. It touches me in a way that people with a mental illness are not accepted by a scrutinizing, non-understanding and "ill" informed society. Maybe the individual is deciding to stop his own denial and finally taking steps towards his own wellness. I think the inevitable "kiss off" to others is the first step in the right direction. Obviously, the "normals" have been saying it to him for a...
Nice. I was attempting some of your ideals in a short sentence. Also. to me, a lot of the lines could easily be the banter at the shrink or therapist. It touches me in a way that people with a mental illness are not accepted by a scrutinizing, non-understanding and "ill" informed society. Maybe the individual is deciding to stop his own denial and finally taking steps towards his own wellness. I think the inevitable "kiss off" to others is the first step in the right direction. Obviously, the "normals" have been saying it to him for a long time. Oh, I forgot, the list does match my med intake and the situations are all too true...