i agree with charlietc, that its about masochism. but not so much about loneliness as that loneliness is riddled through it. because its the baring of katies soul and katie at the time was obviously lonely/isolated, not able to identify with others in the same way they do each other, so it leaked its way in. in my opinion it describes her version of a fairytale prince come to rescue her("A prayer for the lover, the willing intender"), a man larger-then-life like god or jesus("i only make love to jesus, i only fuck a god"), stronger then her. who will force her to face "the shit that i sleep in", heal her("the one who can mend her"), break her ("To break down the girl a heavenly surrender") and release her ("I pray for the one who can open my door Let me go through it Oh yes give me more").
in other words she wants a life-changing lover who will break her in through violence and sex, and deliver her some kind of judgement/punishment("Set me free by your weighted autonomy") and she'll give in cause its her "heavenly surrender" and it frees her, it mends her in a way.
i agree with charlietc, that its about masochism. but not so much about loneliness as that loneliness is riddled through it. because its the baring of katies soul and katie at the time was obviously lonely/isolated, not able to identify with others in the same way they do each other, so it leaked its way in. in my opinion it describes her version of a fairytale prince come to rescue her("A prayer for the lover, the willing intender"), a man larger-then-life like god or jesus("i only make love to jesus, i only fuck a god"), stronger then her. who will force her to face "the shit that i sleep in", heal her("the one who can mend her"), break her ("To break down the girl a heavenly surrender") and release her ("I pray for the one who can open my door Let me go through it Oh yes give me more"). in other words she wants a life-changing lover who will break her in through violence and sex, and deliver her some kind of judgement/punishment("Set me free by your weighted autonomy") and she'll give in cause its her "heavenly surrender" and it frees her, it mends her in a way.