it's like your so broken inside, and so much of you is hollowed in pain because you've lost so much in a relationship that has broken down and ceased to exist. yet the broken-ness, scars, and open wounds are still there and you and still living on the pieces left behind by the memory of the person and they have become apart of who you are and how you've overcome. somehow though there is always a piece or two that leave you wondering if you should have stayed rather than leaving. one part of you is waiting for love to be able to return in victory, redeeming your soul to a genuine sense of the feeling that had been tarnished previous - yet the other side is hating the fact you are away from them because you had grown to conform and be comfortable because you had found love for that person even though it was the hardest thing to do and even though they didn't deserve it. all of who you are will always be a part of that person, every relationship takes a piece of your soul and forever entwines it with an others. so the only road you can choose is love and love will always lead you back to someone else; but it's really just a cycle, so much so that every one becomes the same, always in a relationship that reminds you of the previous one because of that indecisiveness to want to wait for new love or hate to not have old love because it was comfortable. stuck in between choosing vulnerability and self worthiness or choosing the opposite; guarded, safe, valueless, and "comfortable". so do you stay in the pain of waiting for new love or stay in the pain of comfortability which you had left because it was painful. so you will always wonder.... do i push forward or do i regress?
it's like your so broken inside, and so much of you is hollowed in pain because you've lost so much in a relationship that has broken down and ceased to exist. yet the broken-ness, scars, and open wounds are still there and you and still living on the pieces left behind by the memory of the person and they have become apart of who you are and how you've overcome. somehow though there is always a piece or two that leave you wondering if you should have stayed rather than leaving. one part of you is waiting for love to be able to return in victory, redeeming your soul to a genuine sense of the feeling that had been tarnished previous - yet the other side is hating the fact you are away from them because you had grown to conform and be comfortable because you had found love for that person even though it was the hardest thing to do and even though they didn't deserve it. all of who you are will always be a part of that person, every relationship takes a piece of your soul and forever entwines it with an others. so the only road you can choose is love and love will always lead you back to someone else; but it's really just a cycle, so much so that every one becomes the same, always in a relationship that reminds you of the previous one because of that indecisiveness to want to wait for new love or hate to not have old love because it was comfortable. stuck in between choosing vulnerability and self worthiness or choosing the opposite; guarded, safe, valueless, and "comfortable". so do you stay in the pain of waiting for new love or stay in the pain of comfortability which you had left because it was painful. so you will always wonder.... do i push forward or do i regress?