In my opinion, which could be completlely wrong, i kind of get the impression from a few lines that this is about Josh's herion addiction.
First it comes on quiet, creeping slow
Clever words and phrases only stain
I remain so lost and buried under everything that I need
When all I want is you
[the addiction slowly began to form, slowly. he knows he doesn't need it, but he wants it. so he is buried under things he needs, because he feels like he wants the drug, and it is the only thing he wants( if that makes any sense)]
I've been here so very long and every word is calculated
Never questioned or debated
All these practice poses
I could wreck it if I had to
But I'm the wreck so what would that do?
[he has been stuck in self destuction for so long. he never questioned or debated if he shouldn't do heroin. he feels like heroin could wreck his life, but he feels like he already is a wreck, so why does it matter?]
My masterpiece will fall apart
It was over before the start
[his days of being clean, and maybe happy will be over, but he knew he wasn't even happy to begin with]
If I burn out and slip away
This is just a part I portray
And this is just a part I portray
You're beautiful, can I hide in you a while?
This is just a part I portray
And this is just a part I portray
[josh is portraying someone who doesn't do drugs, so no one would ever find out he was hurt again. this part could be wrong. but i feel like the "you're" is heroin. so he wants to hide in it to distract him from everything else.]
Making mostly to themselves
Don't make a sound in case they hear you
It only hurts me to be near you
Keep those tired eyes closed
Careful, follow my instruction
And I will show you self-destruction
[he doesn't want to make a sound (show any sign of there being a problem) because it would hurt them. now, he realizes that heroin is hurting him, so it hurts him to be near it. josh always talks about how everything he did was a way to destroy himself, so he hints at this here]
This masterpiece is only mine
Entirely guilty by design
[this problem is his, not cause by anyone else]
If I burn out and slip away
This is just a part I portray
And this is just a part I portray
You're beautiful, can I hide in you a while?
This is just a part I portray
Can I hide in you a while?
[view above]
I just can't let it, let it out
No, I just can't let it out
I just can't let it, let it out
No, I just can't let it out
I just can't let it, let it out
No, I just can't let it out
I just can't let it, let it out
No, I just can't let it out
This is just a part I portray
You're beautiful, can I hide in you a while?
You're beautiful
[he is arguing with himself. he is considering telling someone he has a problem(let it out) but then he decides it is just another one of his "faces" or "roles" and he decides to stay with it.
If this is just a part I portray
If this is just a part I portray
I don't know how it got this way
[heroin used to only be some of his life, a part of it. but now it is beginning to take over his life.]
In my opinion, which could be completlely wrong, i kind of get the impression from a few lines that this is about Josh's herion addiction.
First it comes on quiet, creeping slow Clever words and phrases only stain I remain so lost and buried under everything that I need When all I want is you [the addiction slowly began to form, slowly. he knows he doesn't need it, but he wants it. so he is buried under things he needs, because he feels like he wants the drug, and it is the only thing he wants( if that makes any sense)]
I've been here so very long and every word is calculated Never questioned or debated All these practice poses I could wreck it if I had to But I'm the wreck so what would that do? [he has been stuck in self destuction for so long. he never questioned or debated if he shouldn't do heroin. he feels like heroin could wreck his life, but he feels like he already is a wreck, so why does it matter?]
My masterpiece will fall apart It was over before the start [his days of being clean, and maybe happy will be over, but he knew he wasn't even happy to begin with]
If I burn out and slip away This is just a part I portray And this is just a part I portray You're beautiful, can I hide in you a while? This is just a part I portray And this is just a part I portray [josh is portraying someone who doesn't do drugs, so no one would ever find out he was hurt again. this part could be wrong. but i feel like the "you're" is heroin. so he wants to hide in it to distract him from everything else.]
Making mostly to themselves Don't make a sound in case they hear you It only hurts me to be near you Keep those tired eyes closed Careful, follow my instruction And I will show you self-destruction [he doesn't want to make a sound (show any sign of there being a problem) because it would hurt them. now, he realizes that heroin is hurting him, so it hurts him to be near it. josh always talks about how everything he did was a way to destroy himself, so he hints at this here]
This masterpiece is only mine Entirely guilty by design [this problem is his, not cause by anyone else]
If I burn out and slip away This is just a part I portray And this is just a part I portray You're beautiful, can I hide in you a while? This is just a part I portray Can I hide in you a while? [view above]
I just can't let it, let it out No, I just can't let it out I just can't let it, let it out No, I just can't let it out I just can't let it, let it out No, I just can't let it out I just can't let it, let it out No, I just can't let it out This is just a part I portray You're beautiful, can I hide in you a while? You're beautiful [he is arguing with himself. he is considering telling someone he has a problem(let it out) but then he decides it is just another one of his "faces" or "roles" and he decides to stay with it.
If this is just a part I portray If this is just a part I portray I don't know how it got this way [heroin used to only be some of his life, a part of it. but now it is beginning to take over his life.]
hope this helped anyone!