O God, what to say about this song. Considering their new album came out recently i think it couldn't be a more suitable time to talk about the meaning of this song, considering the relevance. The start of the song talks about how he felt before he started taking anti depressants, which in hindsight has a shocking resemblance to how i feel now. The other half of the song talks about how he felt after or during taking the pills. When he says "i threw the one thing that made me beautiful away" he is talking about his mind. If you listen to the album 'The Monitor' or 'The Airing of Grievances' he talks a lot about these inner problems.
He then goes on to say that because of the anti depressants he abandoned everything that he believed in just so his mind would be at peace. He admits that he began to withhold his actions without the help from the pills "I can't do nothing without his permission - now down at Rock Ridge pharmacy i will be waiting for my man" the man basically being his mind after taking the pills, telling him what to do. The end of the song is an expose on how he feels prior to taking anti depressants. He has finally come to the realization that he will always be the person he used to be, but at least now with the help of the pills he can feel better about himself. The whole song he is arguing to himself about which life suits him better. The life without help from pills or the life with. Personally, selfishly, considering how terrible i think his new album is, i believe that in regards to his lyricism and emotionality, he was better off not going on anti depressants. It lead to deeper meanings in his songs and it made him unique. He threw the part away that made him beautiful and different in order to conform to society, or feel normal amongst his peers. I truly wish the best for Pat but i feel in a music standpoint he was better off without the pills. This song is amazing none the less and has literally made me tear up as well as get me through some tough times. TITUS ANDRONICUS FOREVER!
O God, what to say about this song. Considering their new album came out recently i think it couldn't be a more suitable time to talk about the meaning of this song, considering the relevance. The start of the song talks about how he felt before he started taking anti depressants, which in hindsight has a shocking resemblance to how i feel now. The other half of the song talks about how he felt after or during taking the pills. When he says "i threw the one thing that made me beautiful away" he is talking about his mind. If you listen to the album 'The Monitor' or 'The Airing of Grievances' he talks a lot about these inner problems. He then goes on to say that because of the anti depressants he abandoned everything that he believed in just so his mind would be at peace. He admits that he began to withhold his actions without the help from the pills "I can't do nothing without his permission - now down at Rock Ridge pharmacy i will be waiting for my man" the man basically being his mind after taking the pills, telling him what to do. The end of the song is an expose on how he feels prior to taking anti depressants. He has finally come to the realization that he will always be the person he used to be, but at least now with the help of the pills he can feel better about himself. The whole song he is arguing to himself about which life suits him better. The life without help from pills or the life with. Personally, selfishly, considering how terrible i think his new album is, i believe that in regards to his lyricism and emotionality, he was better off not going on anti depressants. It lead to deeper meanings in his songs and it made him unique. He threw the part away that made him beautiful and different in order to conform to society, or feel normal amongst his peers. I truly wish the best for Pat but i feel in a music standpoint he was better off without the pills. This song is amazing none the less and has literally made me tear up as well as get me through some tough times. TITUS ANDRONICUS FOREVER!