Personally, this song really hits home for me as well. My interpretation is different though, and the above lyrics correction helps a lot with that. I was wondering if my hearing was wrong when I first read the lyrics up top. XD
Anyways, for me this really relates to a situation I was in with a now ex-boyfriend that I was living with for around two years. We went through something pretty heavy, and after that I was never the same. I do have a problem with depression, but then again who doesn't? Either way, I was in a place where I felt like I was dead inside, as cliche as that sounds. I remembered I loved him before the incident (we'll call it that) happened, but I had nothing left in me to still love him after the first time I broke down about it, showing that amount of weakness for the first time in front of someone ever, and he only said I needed to get off the fucking edge. It was that moment my entire being just shut down. After that we still lived together, he went about his life like nothing happened, while I became this person I didn't know, pretending right along with him. After a while, you forget consciously that you're pretending, that you're heart is tearing apart with each breath. Each day, I would fall further and further into madness until I just felt like screaming because I never dealt with what happened, and the only person I had loved with all my being, who had a part in the incident, just seemed to bounce back. I got cold, started to hate almost everything about him, lashed out with misplaced anger, and just became a shell. I knew inside it was wrong, knew this wasn't who I was, knew that I wasn't being fair, but the pain and anger suffocated me and after not facing what happened for so long, it was easier to never do so. Of course, I finally left because we both couldn't turn back time, and i couldn't become the person he loved so much before because I lost a large part of who I was. Sorry for the long babble, I guess I took this as a therapy post. XD Either way, everything in this song really speaks to my heart. I didn't know if I was human anymore, I didn't know how to stop feeling or acting the way I was, I didn't know how to love anymore, and I felt like I was dying every day.
Personally, this song really hits home for me as well. My interpretation is different though, and the above lyrics correction helps a lot with that. I was wondering if my hearing was wrong when I first read the lyrics up top. XD
Anyways, for me this really relates to a situation I was in with a now ex-boyfriend that I was living with for around two years. We went through something pretty heavy, and after that I was never the same. I do have a problem with depression, but then again who doesn't? Either way, I was in a place where I felt like I was dead inside, as cliche as that sounds. I remembered I loved him before the incident (we'll call it that) happened, but I had nothing left in me to still love him after the first time I broke down about it, showing that amount of weakness for the first time in front of someone ever, and he only said I needed to get off the fucking edge. It was that moment my entire being just shut down. After that we still lived together, he went about his life like nothing happened, while I became this person I didn't know, pretending right along with him. After a while, you forget consciously that you're pretending, that you're heart is tearing apart with each breath. Each day, I would fall further and further into madness until I just felt like screaming because I never dealt with what happened, and the only person I had loved with all my being, who had a part in the incident, just seemed to bounce back. I got cold, started to hate almost everything about him, lashed out with misplaced anger, and just became a shell. I knew inside it was wrong, knew this wasn't who I was, knew that I wasn't being fair, but the pain and anger suffocated me and after not facing what happened for so long, it was easier to never do so. Of course, I finally left because we both couldn't turn back time, and i couldn't become the person he loved so much before because I lost a large part of who I was. Sorry for the long babble, I guess I took this as a therapy post. XD Either way, everything in this song really speaks to my heart. I didn't know if I was human anymore, I didn't know how to stop feeling or acting the way I was, I didn't know how to love anymore, and I felt like I was dying every day.