I'm pretty sure this song is about someone who pursued a high-pressure career he didn't really want for prestige. Now he feels trapped in it and is having severe regrets, struggling and doubting that there's still time to change his life and do what he really wants--
"made it to the golden geek and failed So then you throw your fantasy away
to fade" -- worked hard to do something technically oriented and prestigious and tries to numb his actual desires to fit in on the job
"to tokyo network stocks i stream, all my wasted dreams on the screen" -- became a financial analyst/stock broker and reminded of his unfulfilled passion every day
"Could I
not take it in vain? Oh,
could I
not fake it again?"
-- couldn't I be real and do what I really like rather than faking interest in things to "get ahead"
"I sent my heart away like heros in the rain" -- lamenting that he followed society's image of what's valuable rather than pursuing what he was truly passionate about
I'm pretty sure this song is about someone who pursued a high-pressure career he didn't really want for prestige. Now he feels trapped in it and is having severe regrets, struggling and doubting that there's still time to change his life and do what he really wants--