"Every day I wander
In negative disposition
As I'm bombarded by superlatives
Realizing very well that I am not alone
Introverted
I look to tomorrow for salvation
But I'm thinking altruistically
And a wave of overwhelming doubt
Turns me to stone"
It's about fear. We see all the horrible things in life, yet we're fascinated by all the incredible, beautiful, larger than life things other people are capable of - both of which scare us. Fear of insignificance, fear of uncertainty, fear of capability, fear of feeling like a loser, and the biggest fear of looking back at life and never taking a chance - an introverted idealist, but never really takes their shot at something they believe in their soul. Fear of overwhelming guilt and shame. Thinking things will just magically get better or they will improve without steping outside of their comfort zone of security and realizing the immense pressure and challenge of the unknown (thinking altruistically / overwhelming doubt turning you to stone). Its self analysis, its burying your head in the sand and going back to your comfortable fantasy land where things will never change unless you do.
"If there's a purpose for us all it remains a secret to me"
Searching desperately for purpose, passion, and meaning of their life. The guilt of realizing you're not special, until you understand that you really are. That feeling in your belly, that's intuition leading you towards purpose. Follow it, understand why.
"Every day I wander In negative disposition As I'm bombarded by superlatives Realizing very well that I am not alone Introverted I look to tomorrow for salvation But I'm thinking altruistically And a wave of overwhelming doubt Turns me to stone"
It's about fear. We see all the horrible things in life, yet we're fascinated by all the incredible, beautiful, larger than life things other people are capable of - both of which scare us. Fear of insignificance, fear of uncertainty, fear of capability, fear of feeling like a loser, and the biggest fear of looking back at life and never taking a chance - an introverted idealist, but never really takes their shot at something they believe in their soul. Fear of overwhelming guilt and shame. Thinking things will just magically get better or they will improve without steping outside of their comfort zone of security and realizing the immense pressure and challenge of the unknown (thinking altruistically / overwhelming doubt turning you to stone). Its self analysis, its burying your head in the sand and going back to your comfortable fantasy land where things will never change unless you do.
"If there's a purpose for us all it remains a secret to me" Searching desperately for purpose, passion, and meaning of their life. The guilt of realizing you're not special, until you understand that you really are. That feeling in your belly, that's intuition leading you towards purpose. Follow it, understand why.