this song is about hopelessness. it reads more like a confession of feelings than a story. it's about giving up on yourself and turning your back to those that try to help you or put up with you (i detest your patience), turning your back on the world and how it laughs at you (jesus laughs). it speaks the feelings of turning on yourself, seeing only the disgusting nature you imagine yourself to exposition (That settle turning smirk that's always fixed upon my face), and being sickened at how anyone could see anything different. it's a feeling that leaves you wanting to be alone with your sickness so you can wallow in it, absorbing all of its potency. it's truly a very raw depiction of emotion
this song is about hopelessness. it reads more like a confession of feelings than a story. it's about giving up on yourself and turning your back to those that try to help you or put up with you (i detest your patience), turning your back on the world and how it laughs at you (jesus laughs). it speaks the feelings of turning on yourself, seeing only the disgusting nature you imagine yourself to exposition (That settle turning smirk that's always fixed upon my face), and being sickened at how anyone could see anything different. it's a feeling that leaves you wanting to be alone with your sickness so you can wallow in it, absorbing all of its potency. it's truly a very raw depiction of emotion