I'm not one for the ladies. At all. They basically don't talk to me. I know, I'm only 17, and I shouldn't worry. But the unfortunate reality of this means that as soon as one comes along, I fall for them immediately.
Start of this year, I met a girl. Fantastic girl. Fucking beautiful, much smarter than I, pretty decent music taste. But, because she was way too good for me, I couldn't just ask her out there, so I snuck my way in. I became good friends with her. Really good friends. She basically spend all her time with me and one of my other friends, who already had a girlfriend, so in my mind she was mine.
In my mind we were fucking perfect. I could imagine this fairytale relationship of happiness, because she was one of those girls who I'd rather hug than bone, and I could just imagine this perfect reality in my minds eye. I held onto this dream. It gave me happiness, thinking it may possibly come true. But it was so vivid, I made the stupid decision to try and make it come true.
About a month ago I finally decided to tell her my feelings. To no avail. At first, I wasn't that mad. I mean, she was way too beautiful for me, and she valued my friendship too much. But then I realised. The dream was gone. It was no longer in my mind's eye, because it was now impossible. Before it was improbable, now it's impossible.
This drove me insane. I kept thinking of ways I could get her to change her mind, bring back the dream. I confessed to her again, in more depth, last week.
Nothing.
"The more I show the way I feel, the less I find you give a damn"
This song is my anthem right now. I've told her I can't speak to her any more because I'll go insane. But I really, honestly did think that it was the start of something beautiful.
You're my hero, LOL. Probably because I fell exactly the same after my gf broke up with me when I was just 17. And even more because you really get the song IMHO. ;)
You're my hero, LOL. Probably because I fell exactly the same after my gf broke up with me when I was just 17. And even more because you really get the song IMHO. ;)
I am experiencing this song.
I'm not one for the ladies. At all. They basically don't talk to me. I know, I'm only 17, and I shouldn't worry. But the unfortunate reality of this means that as soon as one comes along, I fall for them immediately.
Start of this year, I met a girl. Fantastic girl. Fucking beautiful, much smarter than I, pretty decent music taste. But, because she was way too good for me, I couldn't just ask her out there, so I snuck my way in. I became good friends with her. Really good friends. She basically spend all her time with me and one of my other friends, who already had a girlfriend, so in my mind she was mine.
In my mind we were fucking perfect. I could imagine this fairytale relationship of happiness, because she was one of those girls who I'd rather hug than bone, and I could just imagine this perfect reality in my minds eye. I held onto this dream. It gave me happiness, thinking it may possibly come true. But it was so vivid, I made the stupid decision to try and make it come true.
About a month ago I finally decided to tell her my feelings. To no avail. At first, I wasn't that mad. I mean, she was way too beautiful for me, and she valued my friendship too much. But then I realised. The dream was gone. It was no longer in my mind's eye, because it was now impossible. Before it was improbable, now it's impossible.
This drove me insane. I kept thinking of ways I could get her to change her mind, bring back the dream. I confessed to her again, in more depth, last week.
Nothing.
"The more I show the way I feel, the less I find you give a damn"
This song is my anthem right now. I've told her I can't speak to her any more because I'll go insane. But I really, honestly did think that it was the start of something beautiful.
You're my hero, LOL. Probably because I fell exactly the same after my gf broke up with me when I was just 17. And even more because you really get the song IMHO. ;)
You're my hero, LOL. Probably because I fell exactly the same after my gf broke up with me when I was just 17. And even more because you really get the song IMHO. ;)
Just wanted to say that girls go through this too! I went through rejection after rejection during those years.
Just wanted to say that girls go through this too! I went through rejection after rejection during those years.