As someone who has dealt with serious depression, this song hits really close to home. My interpretation of this beautiful song:
(I may have read into the lyrics a bit too far, but I love this song and have spent a lot of time with it.. Hope this might provide some insight for any other interested people out there.)
"All of the things that I thought were so easy
Just got harder and harder each day"
Even the little things, like waking up in the morning and going to work, have changed. The person in this 'story' (as I think of it) is struggling with to hold on to the things she used to have.
"But this empty bedroom won't make anything right
And out on the landing
A friend I forgot to send home
Who waits up for me all through the night"
The empty bedroom line shows that she wants to be alone, to leave everyone's concern behind and just be with her own thoughts- yet she knows deep down that any time she spends with herself won't help her sort anything out anyways. It shows a depth of hopelessness and despair that I think resonate throughout the entire song.
"Calendar girl
Who's in love with the world"
The girl is depressed, but it's not that she hates the world- when she "loves" it, she realizes all the beautiful things around her but believes that she can never really have a part of that.
"I dreamed I was dying
As I so often do
And when I awoke
I was sure it was true
I ran to the window
Threw my head to the sky
And said whoever is up there
Please don't let me die"
Regret and pain follow suicide attempts. There is a sense of realizing that you don't want to give up just yet. When she wakes up with this same realization, she turns to some higher power for help.
"The pages keep turning
I'll mark off each day with a cross
and I'll laugh about all that we've lost"
I think this verse shows that the girl is hoping that time will heal her wounds. Eventually, she wants to be able to look upon this part of her life and laugh about it, to forget about the pain and move on.
I think the part where Amy sings about the months passing by is one of the best things about this piece. People who are depressed live day by day, and month by month. The girl is hoping that if she can just get through each month, holding on to what remains of her life, she'll make it through.
Although the song has an underlying current of death, depression, and suicide, there's traces of hope (I'm alive, I'm alive") that make it even more sad and moving.
As someone who has dealt with serious depression, this song hits really close to home. My interpretation of this beautiful song: (I may have read into the lyrics a bit too far, but I love this song and have spent a lot of time with it.. Hope this might provide some insight for any other interested people out there.)
"All of the things that I thought were so easy Just got harder and harder each day" Even the little things, like waking up in the morning and going to work, have changed. The person in this 'story' (as I think of it) is struggling with to hold on to the things she used to have.
"But this empty bedroom won't make anything right And out on the landing A friend I forgot to send home Who waits up for me all through the night" The empty bedroom line shows that she wants to be alone, to leave everyone's concern behind and just be with her own thoughts- yet she knows deep down that any time she spends with herself won't help her sort anything out anyways. It shows a depth of hopelessness and despair that I think resonate throughout the entire song.
"Calendar girl Who's in love with the world" The girl is depressed, but it's not that she hates the world- when she "loves" it, she realizes all the beautiful things around her but believes that she can never really have a part of that.
"I dreamed I was dying As I so often do And when I awoke I was sure it was true I ran to the window Threw my head to the sky And said whoever is up there Please don't let me die" Regret and pain follow suicide attempts. There is a sense of realizing that you don't want to give up just yet. When she wakes up with this same realization, she turns to some higher power for help.
"The pages keep turning I'll mark off each day with a cross and I'll laugh about all that we've lost" I think this verse shows that the girl is hoping that time will heal her wounds. Eventually, she wants to be able to look upon this part of her life and laugh about it, to forget about the pain and move on.
I think the part where Amy sings about the months passing by is one of the best things about this piece. People who are depressed live day by day, and month by month. The girl is hoping that if she can just get through each month, holding on to what remains of her life, she'll make it through. Although the song has an underlying current of death, depression, and suicide, there's traces of hope (I'm alive, I'm alive") that make it even more sad and moving.
Sorry for the long post- hope you enjoyed it.