Wow, what a beautifully powerful song!
I'm not entirely sure of what Pete intended the meaning to be in the 'Psychoderelict' story. But I'll take a shot at it, just from all that I know about Pete and his music:
It seems like he's with a new girl, ready to embark on a new life and future together. But, he is afraid of that. There are no certainties in life, and sometimes being with someone new can make you feel afraid. Especially if the feelings towards them are strong, and you feel that your relationship is in their hands.
"I am not drunk now. I am not pilled down. My window's wound down."
"I am not running, I am not hiding" - "Be no more lying" - "I stand here naked"
These lines make it seem like he's also ready to be 100% purely himself, which leaves him exposed and vulnerable. That also leaves him afraid of being rejected at some point for being himself. But he's willing to take that risk, because putting on a facade, or hiding behind booze and pills, and not being true to himself is too taxing on his soul.
Even being so honest as to admit that fact that he is afraid of all this, which can be very difficult to admit to yourself, let alone someone else. But in admitting his fear, he's baring his soul that much more to this person.
That's just my take from many years of listenng to Pete's music and interviews, as well as reading his Autobiography. I could be way off base, but that's how I interpret it.
Wow, what a beautifully powerful song! I'm not entirely sure of what Pete intended the meaning to be in the 'Psychoderelict' story. But I'll take a shot at it, just from all that I know about Pete and his music:
It seems like he's with a new girl, ready to embark on a new life and future together. But, he is afraid of that. There are no certainties in life, and sometimes being with someone new can make you feel afraid. Especially if the feelings towards them are strong, and you feel that your relationship is in their hands.
"I am not drunk now. I am not pilled down. My window's wound down." "I am not running, I am not hiding" - "Be no more lying" - "I stand here naked"
These lines make it seem like he's also ready to be 100% purely himself, which leaves him exposed and vulnerable. That also leaves him afraid of being rejected at some point for being himself. But he's willing to take that risk, because putting on a facade, or hiding behind booze and pills, and not being true to himself is too taxing on his soul. Even being so honest as to admit that fact that he is afraid of all this, which can be very difficult to admit to yourself, let alone someone else. But in admitting his fear, he's baring his soul that much more to this person.
That's just my take from many years of listenng to Pete's music and interviews, as well as reading his Autobiography. I could be way off base, but that's how I interpret it.