I thought this was a more obvious one, but apparently not..maybe I'm the one that's wrong but I figured this is loosely about mental illness, but not entirely. It's about being a broken, damaged person with lots of baggage and problems. Relationships are hard in that situation because you don't want your issues and struggles to bring down the person you love most in the same way they haunt you. I think it's more about seeing oneself as being like a disease to the ones they love, always a burden, nothing but sadness, anger, and self-loathing
. ....feeling like you understand why someone wouldn't want to spend their life with you, not blaming them in anyway because you don't even want to be with you...yet holding out hope that maybe this is the person that genuinely thinks you're worth the trouble and decides to be with you in anyway....while remaining guarded enough to not be disappointed if and when they change their mind.
I mean, I feel like I could copy and paste this same exact thing for a handful of other AJJ songs and it would be accurate...admitting to inadequacy, super classic AJJ theme if you think about it. Sean writes from his soul, most all of it is autobiographical and he rarely uses complex metaphors...he lays it right out for you to make sure it's very clear where he stands. It isn't a bad thing, I'm just saying he's usually fairly direct about his message, he doesn't want you to be thinking about what his lyrics mean, he wants you to focus on what they mean for you. Short story made very long, but procrastination knows no limits, I guess.
I thought this was a more obvious one, but apparently not..maybe I'm the one that's wrong but I figured this is loosely about mental illness, but not entirely. It's about being a broken, damaged person with lots of baggage and problems. Relationships are hard in that situation because you don't want your issues and struggles to bring down the person you love most in the same way they haunt you. I think it's more about seeing oneself as being like a disease to the ones they love, always a burden, nothing but sadness, anger, and self-loathing
. ....feeling like you understand why someone wouldn't want to spend their life with you, not blaming them in anyway because you don't even want to be with you...yet holding out hope that maybe this is the person that genuinely thinks you're worth the trouble and decides to be with you in anyway....while remaining guarded enough to not be disappointed if and when they change their mind.
I mean, I feel like I could copy and paste this same exact thing for a handful of other AJJ songs and it would be accurate...admitting to inadequacy, super classic AJJ theme if you think about it. Sean writes from his soul, most all of it is autobiographical and he rarely uses complex metaphors...he lays it right out for you to make sure it's very clear where he stands. It isn't a bad thing, I'm just saying he's usually fairly direct about his message, he doesn't want you to be thinking about what his lyrics mean, he wants you to focus on what they mean for you. Short story made very long, but procrastination knows no limits, I guess.