I believe this song (in general) is about being alone.
He's at one point so desperately alone he turns to "the devil".
His consequences are literally worse than his ego because his ego got him there and the consequence is affecting things now.
He (like most of us) sets his expectations high and because of that he always fails
because of this he stops caring, he'll take all the chances he wants (like being with this girl:
"turn off the lights
Turn on the show for me tonight")
and by the line: "like the man I know I'm not"
a "man" in his view would take these chances.... and even though he's taking them now to, he thinks and believes just wont live up to the expectations.
"how in god's name did I survive?" seems to be obvious as to how did he survive my past actions.
Also the part of: "Once it falls apart my heads in the clouds
So I'm taking every chance I've got"
seems to mean that hes going to take chances and he what he wants because afterwards he may go insane or a less dramatic form because he'll be back where he started.
Hey maybe this song is about his dad.... but to me this song is about expectations, loneliness, and takings chances.
This interpretation may not make the most sense, but I hope you understand how I see it.
I believe this song (in general) is about being alone.
He's at one point so desperately alone he turns to "the devil".
His consequences are literally worse than his ego because his ego got him there and the consequence is affecting things now.
He (like most of us) sets his expectations high and because of that he always fails
because of this he stops caring, he'll take all the chances he wants (like being with this girl: "turn off the lights Turn on the show for me tonight")
and by the line: "like the man I know I'm not" a "man" in his view would take these chances.... and even though he's taking them now to, he thinks and believes just wont live up to the expectations.
"how in god's name did I survive?" seems to be obvious as to how did he survive my past actions.
Also the part of: "Once it falls apart my heads in the clouds So I'm taking every chance I've got" seems to mean that hes going to take chances and he what he wants because afterwards he may go insane or a less dramatic form because he'll be back where he started.
Hey maybe this song is about his dad.... but to me this song is about expectations, loneliness, and takings chances.
This interpretation may not make the most sense, but I hope you understand how I see it.