I'm not sure, but I get the impression that this song is about developing a drug (coke?) addiction.
She starts using and sees some of the unpleasant side-effects (insomnia, not being grounded, how easy it is to find meaning in everything but only while on it). She doesn't think she'll become an addict, but the coke keeps enhancing her life, and withdrawal makes her feel so empty and shitty and loveless, and things stop being so easy and enjoyable all the time.
She starts using it in more and more contexts (the "I took it to the ____" lines) to enhance them, but then she has to face some kind of unpleasant event related to her drug use. Despite or because of this unpleasant event, she realizes her desire for the drug goes beyond her desire for anything else ("higher than the call for children", etc). She's saying she should have stopped using right then and there, when she realized she wanted it more than everything else (should've flipped it off, I should've known there and then"), but coming off of it was too shitty in too many ways.
So she starts taking the drug again ("oh you roll, roll over me"), recognizing that it's her "pristine, hopeless thing", as the high is still perfect, but it's a high and highs end and tolerances build up and eventually you have to come down. It's a hopeless place to live and rely on, because you can only visit. And now you're totally dependent and controlled by a substance.
I'm not sure, but I get the impression that this song is about developing a drug (coke?) addiction.
She starts using and sees some of the unpleasant side-effects (insomnia, not being grounded, how easy it is to find meaning in everything but only while on it). She doesn't think she'll become an addict, but the coke keeps enhancing her life, and withdrawal makes her feel so empty and shitty and loveless, and things stop being so easy and enjoyable all the time.
She starts using it in more and more contexts (the "I took it to the ____" lines) to enhance them, but then she has to face some kind of unpleasant event related to her drug use. Despite or because of this unpleasant event, she realizes her desire for the drug goes beyond her desire for anything else ("higher than the call for children", etc). She's saying she should have stopped using right then and there, when she realized she wanted it more than everything else (should've flipped it off, I should've known there and then"), but coming off of it was too shitty in too many ways.
So she starts taking the drug again ("oh you roll, roll over me"), recognizing that it's her "pristine, hopeless thing", as the high is still perfect, but it's a high and highs end and tolerances build up and eventually you have to come down. It's a hopeless place to live and rely on, because you can only visit. And now you're totally dependent and controlled by a substance.
@discobiscu spot on.
@discobiscu spot on.