It's about being afraid of death and what comes afterwards. The vain of not existing anymore. She cannot ignore or deny the thoughts concerning death, it's an obsession. That's why everything in life seems contemporary to her and she's felt this profound sadness, maybe even depression, eversince she was a little child. There is nothing to do about how she feels, so she just hopes that one day the fear will be gone and she'll adjust to the thought of death.
It's about being afraid of death and what comes afterwards. The vain of not existing anymore. She cannot ignore or deny the thoughts concerning death, it's an obsession. That's why everything in life seems contemporary to her and she's felt this profound sadness, maybe even depression, eversince she was a little child. There is nothing to do about how she feels, so she just hopes that one day the fear will be gone and she'll adjust to the thought of death.