Curious: how did you treat those people? Did you include them in your REAL life? Did you lie to them about something similar for not days, weeks, or months; rather, for years? Did you pick others over them repeatedly? Are you still absent, but yet not absent from the lives of others? Could you perhaps be trying to use people for your own selfish wants/needs? And most importantly, do you not change because it's difficult and risky or because you actually love the payoff you currently get (and have been perhaps getting for years)? I'm sorry. I'm just curious. You brought up some interesting sentiment that seemed relevant.
Curious: how did you treat those people? Did you include them in your REAL life? Did you lie to them about something similar for not days, weeks, or months; rather, for years? Did you pick others over them repeatedly? Are you still absent, but yet not absent from the lives of others? Could you perhaps be trying to use people for your own selfish wants/needs? And most importantly, do you not change because it's difficult and risky or because you actually love the payoff you currently get (and have been perhaps getting for years)? I'm sorry. I'm just curious. You brought up some interesting sentiment that seemed relevant.