Yesterday I hung out with two of my exes (my first and third, the only two I'm still friends with) at the same time. They were hanging out together and called and asked if I wanted to go do something with them, just a spur of the moment thing. I hadn't seen my first ex since he moved away when he was in ninth grade and I was in tenth (he was my boyfriend when he was in seventh and eighth grade and when I was in eighth and ninth grade, we were together for a year and four months and that's far and away the longest relationship I've ever had. I hadn't seen my second ex since I moved out of our old neighborhood about a year ago (we were together for a few months in our senior year of high school even though we had known each other since elementary school.)
Anyway, I said yes to their invitation even though I thought it might be kind of awkward hanging out with them again since I hadn't seen either of them in a long time and their both my exes and I still kind of have feelings for both of them--stronger for the first guy than my third ex, but still.
It turned out to be a really fun, not-awkward-at-all day spent at the mall, but when I got home later that night after they left I started crying over my first ex as if I had gone back in time four years to when we broke up. The first few minutes when we were walking next to each other I had an overwhelming urge to grab his hand and stop him and ask to get him back, I knew I had never gotten over him, even though we're 18 and 19 now and we haven't been together in years, and there were a few times when we almost got back together but didn't because we lived too far from each other and neither of us drove. And now he's engaged and his fiancee is pregnant, so my chance is really zero now. And this song and "Sometime Around Midnight" has just been stuck in my head since yesterday.
Yesterday I hung out with two of my exes (my first and third, the only two I'm still friends with) at the same time. They were hanging out together and called and asked if I wanted to go do something with them, just a spur of the moment thing. I hadn't seen my first ex since he moved away when he was in ninth grade and I was in tenth (he was my boyfriend when he was in seventh and eighth grade and when I was in eighth and ninth grade, we were together for a year and four months and that's far and away the longest relationship I've ever had. I hadn't seen my second ex since I moved out of our old neighborhood about a year ago (we were together for a few months in our senior year of high school even though we had known each other since elementary school.) Anyway, I said yes to their invitation even though I thought it might be kind of awkward hanging out with them again since I hadn't seen either of them in a long time and their both my exes and I still kind of have feelings for both of them--stronger for the first guy than my third ex, but still. It turned out to be a really fun, not-awkward-at-all day spent at the mall, but when I got home later that night after they left I started crying over my first ex as if I had gone back in time four years to when we broke up. The first few minutes when we were walking next to each other I had an overwhelming urge to grab his hand and stop him and ask to get him back, I knew I had never gotten over him, even though we're 18 and 19 now and we haven't been together in years, and there were a few times when we almost got back together but didn't because we lived too far from each other and neither of us drove. And now he's engaged and his fiancee is pregnant, so my chance is really zero now. And this song and "Sometime Around Midnight" has just been stuck in my head since yesterday.