he may be telling us how he feels confronting his ma in her house when he has shot up and is feeling "dead"... he can feel her possible recognition of his state and has misgivings but is numb to them so states them matter of factly as he can do nothing about the situation now he is in it.
he may be telling us how he feels confronting his ma in her house when he has shot up and is feeling "dead"... he can feel her possible recognition of his state and has misgivings but is numb to them so states them matter of factly as he can do nothing about the situation now he is in it.