I Believe In You

This song always reopens my wounds from this past year. I was in a really rocky relationship and I'm not sure who is more to blame because we both had the worst flaws. One morning I played this song as I was getting ready and my partner, who was in the bathroom, came out and asked who played this. I told him who it was and the name of the song, not really thinking much about it. I want to say that a week or so later he then abandoned me... he didn't leave me, he literally abandoned me. He left a letter... few pages long... explaining he had to leave.... not sure if meant anything he had written in his letter to this day but I finally just ripped it up in little pieces this summer so that I could finalize moving on. I don't think he realizes how much grief his absence caused me but... it almost shames me to think he does but that it doesn't affect him.

I really feel that he asked me who played this song because he knew what he was about to do and this song speaks about having that doubt. Whether or not he wants to be with that person....

It still breaks my heart.. It'd be foolish and cowardly to say that it didn't still... I still cry about it...