I think this song is about Hillel's death and life in general. After he heard the bad news Anthony went to Mexico for few weeks because he was devastated. He hasn't been to his funeral or visited his grave long time after that.
"Where I go I just don't know
I might end up somewhere in Mexico.
When I find my piece of mind
I'm gonna keep you for the end of time."
My opinion is that he's describing his feelings of sadness and pain at the begining of the song.
"I've got a bad disease
But from my brain is where I bleed.
Insanity it seems
Has got me by my soul to squeeze.
Well all the love from thee
With all the dying trees I scream.
The angels in my dreams (yeah)
Have turned to demons of greed that's mean."
The thing is that Anthony was addict too and if he doesn't stop with the bad habit he will probably end up like his friend. He knew that Hillel's looking at him right now and that he wants Anthony to stop using drugs and take care of himself. But we know and he knows that's not easy at all.
"Oh make my days a breeze
And take away my self destruction."
So he's describing some feelings related to that:
"It's bitter baby,
And it's very sweet.
I'm on a rollercoaster,
but I'm on my feet.
Take me to the river,
Let me on your shore.
I'll be coming back baby,
I'll be coming back for more."
There were some good moments because Anthony was in love when everything with Hillel happened. He was in Mexico with his girlfriend Ione and he loved her more than anything. She helped him during bad times and in one moment eveything was much easier because of her:
"Today love smiled on me.
It took away my pain say please
All that you had to free
You gotta let it be oh yeah."
In chorus he had to face the reality after coming back from Mexico. He's lost right now, he has drug problems, he lost his best friend and everything else... but he wants find himself, get better and get sober because of Hillel and other people who loves him. Give them some of his good time.
"Where I go I just don't know
I got to got to gotta take it slow.
When I find my piece of mind
I'm gonna give you some of my good time."
I finished reading Anthony's autobiography "Scar Tissue" few days ago and in one part at the end of the book he was saying something about regreting.
He said he wouldn't change a thing about his life because this life made him person who's he today.
"I could not forget
But I will not endeavor
Simple pleasures aren't as special
But I won't regret it never. "
I think this song is about Hillel's death and life in general. After he heard the bad news Anthony went to Mexico for few weeks because he was devastated. He hasn't been to his funeral or visited his grave long time after that. "Where I go I just don't know I might end up somewhere in Mexico. When I find my piece of mind I'm gonna keep you for the end of time."
My opinion is that he's describing his feelings of sadness and pain at the begining of the song. "I've got a bad disease But from my brain is where I bleed. Insanity it seems Has got me by my soul to squeeze. Well all the love from thee With all the dying trees I scream. The angels in my dreams (yeah) Have turned to demons of greed that's mean."
The thing is that Anthony was addict too and if he doesn't stop with the bad habit he will probably end up like his friend. He knew that Hillel's looking at him right now and that he wants Anthony to stop using drugs and take care of himself. But we know and he knows that's not easy at all. "Oh make my days a breeze And take away my self destruction."
So he's describing some feelings related to that: "It's bitter baby, And it's very sweet. I'm on a rollercoaster, but I'm on my feet. Take me to the river, Let me on your shore. I'll be coming back baby, I'll be coming back for more."
There were some good moments because Anthony was in love when everything with Hillel happened. He was in Mexico with his girlfriend Ione and he loved her more than anything. She helped him during bad times and in one moment eveything was much easier because of her: "Today love smiled on me. It took away my pain say please All that you had to free You gotta let it be oh yeah."
In chorus he had to face the reality after coming back from Mexico. He's lost right now, he has drug problems, he lost his best friend and everything else... but he wants find himself, get better and get sober because of Hillel and other people who loves him. Give them some of his good time. "Where I go I just don't know I got to got to gotta take it slow. When I find my piece of mind I'm gonna give you some of my good time."
I finished reading Anthony's autobiography "Scar Tissue" few days ago and in one part at the end of the book he was saying something about regreting. He said he wouldn't change a thing about his life because this life made him person who's he today. "I could not forget But I will not endeavor Simple pleasures aren't as special But I won't regret it never. "
This is really beautiful and emotional song!